malibumark

something i don't think i ever corelated was that,though i have said this before about when I wake in the morning,is that as I wake I have disturbing needling thoughts; I'm realizing thisnow that...

i was texting a couple of friends this morning.I just suddenly realized that instead of putting them on a pedestal,though I love them both so much and think they have great virtues...I decidedto...

this morning I woke to the nervous anxiety that happens many morningsin the process of me waking up. I feel bad that I fixate on it - as if to solve it -I just don't know how people have a cogent...

my therapist introduced a new idea to me, well maybe she's said itin so many different ways before, but what she said to me last timewas that "you're feelings towards things around you might change...

Things are good. I mean I've done laundry and put it away. I've showered and dressed and now waiting for the bed linens to dry so that I can make the bed. Doing stuff on my own can be mighty...

I was really badgered this morning with intrusive thoughts during a delivery run for my parents.My Aunties (my mother's sisters), this past year,wanted to come out ot California to visit.I told them...

a customer who visits most days, in the early hours when I am at work,came in today as usual. Today, however, she gave me a nice Christmas card and a hefty monetary gift.Super nice of her. Her card...

cheering you guys on ...from here!feeding the good wolf here -had an interesting morning at work -the weekend had my mind all turned around with new ideas,possibility and torment from outside my...

Keep on keeping on!

it's been kind of a mixed up day... moments of up - moments of down...moments of clarity..moments of confusion....moments that I see and accept that I just kind of have to mentally sew togetherthe...

feeling meaningless and incredibly light this morning...I woke upat the usual time, got dressed and zoomed over to get coffee at 5am.Came home and my life feels pointless, with out meaning - - but I...

Went to St. Max's church today. They have purple roses blooming out front. I thought it is a nice touch.

I suppose I should just drop it -I was feeling paranoid and nervous and depressed on a zoomcall with my family today. I just felt a mix of uncomfortable feelings with no ryhme or reasonbut was trying...