malibumark

I think it's because I'm tired. I'll chock it up that - I just drove around 80 milesround trip and that in an of itself would make anyone whiney and cranky.So I am not going to go with it. I'm gonna...

I am struggling with something I don't want to write about publicly becauseit is an area that worries me a great deal.I just am writing because I wish I had a different way of looking at it.Tomorrow...

sometimes with dynamics of social situatioins it feels like i have no safety net..and yet I know I've got to just keep on keeping on - with work and with takingcare of life. I may feel downtrodden...

I think this is a journal about acceptance. Acceptance for the vicissitudesof relationships. A friend once said that whenever he went to visit hisparents "It was always and adventure."I kind of get...

I woke up very early this morning. Mr. Blue wanted his food at 330am...lolThen I got up at 430am or so and dressed and drove to the Starbucks and got a coffee.Then I cam home. Wrote the last journal...

it seems like i just need to make the first steps in my lifeand get going on my dreams.

It's a good morning. Woke at about 630amthrew on some old clothes as I am going to volunteerwith the Treepeople soon. Tree caretaking on a mountain sideis messy dirty work - but fun. Sending good...

when driving home from work today - I started to feel anxious and a 'crazy mess' inside (like I've talked about, when I drive home from work)  -and then I stood back (metaphorically while...

it really feels like 'that' at certain moments - just from the weakness that I feel insideand the projections I start to make about how people feel about me.I was that way at work for a while today -...

I woke up late this morning..710am! I was so relaxed when I got up - not a hard start - and then wentabout the business of starting the day. I cleaned the kitty litter,threw my old clothes in the...

I've read a couple of posts about anxiety today and I've been dealing with itmyself. I've been trying different outlooks for self management.I first starting to think about what my therapist said...

woke up slowly - did NOT go for coffee -shaved, brushed, cleaned, showered and dressed.now I'm eating cheerios in front of the laptop...I need to find something to do - it's still cool out - so I...

So, in my last journal I wrote about summoning the courage and motivation to followmy own path - down the unforseen road and how I was willing and game to 'take that walk' and whatit took to get me...

I got a lot done this morning and then sat down in front of the laptopafraid of making a decision about where to go next...what to do next..I don't know if this will be helpful to anyone - but it...