malibumark

Being alone is getting the better of me right now. Lots of invasive thoughts but that's probably just my mechanism giving myself or dealing with what I want. It's hard to only relate to myself at...

I came home from my parents' house last night very humbled and grateful for the world I live in.Feeling small, meek and flawed, I was filled with loveand affection for my network of friends, family...

Had some good moments today but then fell apart. Taking it one step at a time. The usual things are not working but I'm finding the solace in keeping busy where I can which brings healthfulmoments. 

I need to buy water. And go to the Post Office to mail Christmas Cards.I need to find and apply for a credit card.I'll make the morning meal at 8am.I'll clean up after Blue and make the bed (he's...

I woke up this morning to pestering thoughtsfor some reason, they affirm my emerging consciousnessfrom the deep sleep and it's not fun but I suppose it is what it is.Perhaps it's like a doctor's...

I wrote what I wrote here, earlier this morning.I've been worrying and lost in my own world of feelingsand doubts. I had a zoom call with my family and just felt myselffeeling so 'less than' while on...

I am starting to be aware of how I don't really like who I am when I am around my parents and siblings at times ....In realizing this when I am alone I am able to seethat in the 'not knowing' how to...

I guess I just want to share with you guys. I've kind of had a breakthrough.I recognize that I go in and out of my challenges with mental health. Something happened today where I gained a sense of my...

I don't know why life is trying to beat me up this morning ...I woke this morning, slowly, but with a series of hurtful thoughtsthat were nearly like the affirmation of where I am in the world...

....with the holidays upon us.... and last night's first party of the season all said and done,I find myself questioning, wondering and trying to find appreciation for the spirit of the season.All...

I'm kind of the guy sitting in front of the TV watching the Raider/Dallas game shaking with anxiety. I don't think anyone besides me noticed...People are socializing and I am too timid and empty...

My therapist suggested to me that sometimes for all of us, when we're alone, it's like we're grains of sand on a beach. It was a really inspiring statement to me. It made me feel in good company.

I went to work today and was so glad I was there - just keeping busydoing something i knew I could do - and since there are things in my liferight now I don't know how to handle - work seems like my...