malibumark

i may fail to being something excellent in the worldbut perhaps I can take care of myself and my loved oneswell and just keep on keeping on. these days outside of workreally amp up my sense of...

it seems like there are always two sides of a story when you're talking to other people.for example, when I talk to my therapist, I spill my guts with the intense belief that sheunderstand everything...

I am struggling today to see myself outside a sense of task or see value in myself. I need to calmly shift gears, mentally if I can to go ahead and try to go for things I know I would like to do -it...

last night when I went to bed I really realizedsomething my therapist was talking about when she said "You try and measure up" Indeed I think I've realized that's how I think....a lot.... I tend...

when i am alone i don't always have a sense of why my feelings and thoughtsare going in a certain direction.it's like I need a real sounding board, rather than just my own mind's and spirit'sreaction...

when it feels impossible, i'm finding the reminder to myselfto reach for inner resources which seems to calm me down.I'm too dependent on others at times and when I sense thatI am reaching out for...

does anyone here get aggressive and paranoid feeling at times?like your emotions undermine you - and then the paranoia startsrunning like an engine and you just feel agressive and angry?All that 'go...

had a weird day - feeling way too intense - I kind of need a good joke..and a bottle of scotch and some body to squeeze lol.

I've had a decent day...and am happy.I did a lot of good work at the market and then came home, ate lunch and quickly took a showerso that I could be fresh and clean for my therapy appointment at...

A lot of journals today...But I'll say that sometimes when I am on my own and so challenged to keepmyself from feeling upset or yearning for something that is maybe likean object of how 'it's...

I had a trying time with some socializing a little while ago...at first it was ok - then started to lose perspective as I got tired when around others who I was with -Came home now and have been...

Just went out and got the second coffee for the morning...actually I also got a third coffee complimentary by accident...At first I thought the drink they gave me was hot chocolate, just by the way...

I wrote the following to a friend that: my mental health challenges cause my perspective to changea great deal - in a very capricious way and random way - Perhaps my reaction to that isto be very...

i began writing this last night...times like these. when, i go to bed. i am challenged with a lot of destructive energy. It needles away at me when I try to rest..It's almost always been there since...