malibumark

it was a nice concert! very contemporary but beautiful sounds.

I delivered for my family's business started at 510amthis morning. Traveled all over LA - then came home - at 635a-dropped off the signed paper work at my Dad's and then camehome. Feeling kind of...

I don't really know what to do with the morning.I mean I got up and went for coffee - same routine as always.Then I came home and watched the same shows...Later on I'll watch the CBS Sunday Morning...

those early morning internal fits and starts of painful and invasive thoughts I think help mewake out of my sleep.. I don't like it - but I am starting to see that it's how myinner mechanism works....

Being alone is getting the better of me right now. Lots of invasive thoughts but that's probably just my mechanism giving myself or dealing with what I want. It's hard to only relate to myself at...

I came home from my parents' house last night very humbled and grateful for the world I live in.Feeling small, meek and flawed, I was filled with loveand affection for my network of friends, family...

Had some good moments today but then fell apart. Taking it one step at a time. The usual things are not working but I'm finding the solace in keeping busy where I can which brings healthfulmoments. 

I need to buy water. And go to the Post Office to mail Christmas Cards.I need to find and apply for a credit card.I'll make the morning meal at 8am.I'll clean up after Blue and make the bed (he's...

I woke up this morning to pestering thoughtsfor some reason, they affirm my emerging consciousnessfrom the deep sleep and it's not fun but I suppose it is what it is.Perhaps it's like a doctor's...

I wrote what I wrote here, earlier this morning.I've been worrying and lost in my own world of feelingsand doubts. I had a zoom call with my family and just felt myselffeeling so 'less than' while on...

I am starting to be aware of how I don't really like who I am when I am around my parents and siblings at times ....In realizing this when I am alone I am able to seethat in the 'not knowing' how to...

I guess I just want to share with you guys. I've kind of had a breakthrough.I recognize that I go in and out of my challenges with mental health. Something happened today where I gained a sense of my...

I don't know why life is trying to beat me up this morning ...I woke this morning, slowly, but with a series of hurtful thoughtsthat were nearly like the affirmation of where I am in the world...