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Been a few days...or week...There have been a lot of ups and downs. When I'm up i'm really up! When I'm down, it's scary.Right now I need to stop my weight from dropping. That is my main focus at the...

Tomorrow is our 2 year anniversary! Holy shit time flies!! .......... Everything is going pretty shitty. Emotional wreck. Joanna said she is worried and I haven't acted like this since before going...

Don't think I mentioned this before but Bill (from langley crew) asked me if I would be interested in coaching for the first week in March while Mike is on travel. I got really excited by this!! I...

Had the job interview with Banfield today. About a 40 minute drive there and back- kinda sucks, but not traffic because it's back roads. Only 12 miles, but lots of stop lights.I think the interview...

Had a great session with Joanna.Literally as I walked into yhe waiting room and looked at my phone I had a message from a 301 number I didn't know. I thought to myself holy shit wouldn't it be funny...

haven't been on for a while.very busy.beyond obsessed with finding a job, place to live, etc. it's bad.weight dropped and I actually scared me because it's only 2 pounds away from what I weighed when...

Today so far I have sent inquiry emails to 28 different apartment complexes to get more information on their MPDU (moderately priced dwelling unit) programs. Most have long waiting lists which suck....

another weekend has come and gone.uneventful.feel as though i have eaten WAY too much.feel ugly and huge.like a hippo.a very large hippo.friday got very upset and cried at work when i looked at my...

Things are just bouncing around my mind like a pinball machine.Yesterday and today have both become lousy crappy ass days. Joanna said that it appears that I am sliding. This is not a good thing-...

Doing well with food again.Up and down moods.Extremely horrible body image.Lots of ED thoughts.Yesterday in therapy my head WAS there, but I kind of had a fake mood. I didn't allow my self to feel...

sooooooooooo tired!Had a great day :)I am not skipping any meals, and I have packed all my meals to take with me to work wihich is good! I have eaten everything I have brought as well. The difficulty...

Where am I? Where is Steffanie Alexis McKay?I sure as hell was not there in Therapy today. Steffanie has clearly checked out for the past few days. Peaced out. Gone.Steffanie's eating disorder...

Been  having and still am having REALLY BAD body image thoughts. Cringing at the sight of myself.Many thoughts of wanting to decrease and not follow my meal plan. Lots of uncomfortable feelings...

So last night I could not control myself at all. I knew that I was going to do something stupid. I sent an email to Joanna. I had not done that since before going into the hospital. I feel horrible...

I really have no idea what to do right now and i am having a lot of difficulty dealing with this on my own. I just told Carlos that I picked up an extra dog for the next few days and one of this dogs...