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I have been in a very positive, upbeat, and wonderful mood today! Though I did something bad this morning :( I was tired of being a fat lazy ass and had to move. I couldn't take it any longer. So I...

-didn't like it when Carlos said that I am looking more like a woman and not a little girl. Fuck that. I want to be a little girl. Fuck growing up.-I hate my boobs. I'd rather starve and have them...

Great night!!Just shipped my parents off to Germany for 3 weeks. And we are having a major thunderstorm!! Best night ever!!

Maybe I didn’t really learn to regulate my emotions… I am now pondering as to whether I agree with what Marisa had mentioned to Joanna in regards to regulating my emotions. I feel there are A LOT...

I am one massive fat fuck right now. Following everything and doing well, but in complete utter disgust with my body. Fat is flowing out everywhere. My boobs are huge. I feel fat flowing out of my...

Today went well. It was odd not going to Reflections, and to be quite honest, I missed it. I really miss Lydia. She came in about 1 1/2 weeks ago to the program and I took her in under my wing. She...

Discharged. I can't believe the day is here. I have never had this much confidence and determination in myself before.This program has been amazing. It has been challenging, but very helpful. Not...

Discharge set for friday! New job starts a week later!!

Today is a GREAT, FANTASTIC, ASESOME, FABULOUS, PHENOMENAL, TERRIFIC DAY!!!That has been my mantra since I woke up...and it has worked! I realized why I was in such a funk. It goes back to how I...

Shitty. That's basically all I can say about this weekend. My hyper manic mood has gone down the toilet and now i am in a deep depressive state. I just want to die. I don't give a flying fuck about...

Gave them all the letter this morning. Dr Frenkel did not look like he agreed. After the daily treatment planning meeting that all the staff have, he pulled me aside and said that they are going to...

SOOO MUCH ENERGY!!!!!!!!! And have been in such an AMAZING mood today!!!I got in contact with someone from Arbor Place (place i had the job interview) today and they are going to get back to me. The...

so i started a journal this morning but then had to get off the computer and lost it....so now its going to be about the entire day lol.here is what carlos sent me this morning "Good morning, Pisco...

Much better day!!!Last night I ended up in even more pain because a headache I had throughout the day turned into a migraine. I was keeling over in pain but didn't say anything. One of the nurses...

i am in so much pain right now. it is not even funny. i am feeling so sick to my stomach right now. the past two days have been horrible food wise. i thought it got easier as time went on. i just...