tuxedomck

The time has come for me to say goodbye. Not to life just yet, but to DS. I appreciate all the friendships and support that I have recieved on here, but I think in order to move away from all the...

15 days of COMPLETE HELL later and I am HOME!Just got discharged from IP at Sheppard Pratt this afternoon...starting the day program at the Renfrew Center in Bethesda, Maryland tomorrow. Will do that...

Made the two biggest decisions ever today.First I had an awesome day at clinical and I realized that I, steffanie McKay, wants to be a nurse. I want to work with the elderly. I love them. I loved my...

The body is such an incredible thing. I was thinking a lot about this last night, infact I thjnk I probably only slept for an hour total last night.Just think about it...All the systems and...

OKAY!Wow, so I clearly really don't want to leave DS even though I think it's the best for me...WHAT DO I DO?!?!!?I think I'll stay...but i'm sure in 5 minutes I'll say I'll go. So since I clearly...

Ok. So I have been avoiding DS for a while since all the drama that went on. Looks like things def calmed down on here but it is too much for me. I have made friends that I hope to keep for a...

Okay....so last night I couldn't fall asleep. Shocker- that's pretty much typical for me. Well, I was laying there for HOURS upon HOURS doing Sudoku puzzles in hopes that my eyes would shut. While...

I'm stuck. I'm stuck in a rut and I don't know how to get out.My appt with my psychiatrist went okay last night- we are going to up my meds a little. Hopefully with a change in meds and leaving my...

OK- so i'm going to post this as best as i can. I have had a few beers after a rough ass day so who knows how this post will sound....1st- day started iwth me wakin up at the crack of dawn, not being...

I am so unhappy right now. I think it's my job. I'm really hating it. I hate every minute of it. I try to find the good things associated with it, but there really are none right now. I wake up in a...

So today I have my weekly D and T meetings. Eeeek.I haven't been doing too well. First off my D asked me to not weigh myself this week. Weighed myself the two days after I met with her (so last Wed...

(meant to post this last night) I have been laying in bed trying to fall asleep, but throughts from my appointments today kept interrupting. So here's how they went.... My Dietitian appt went okay....

I feel so fucking fat....not fat acutally, obese right now. I feel disgusting. I'm disgusted in myself. I have been eating pretty normal dinners and I feel nasty. I fee gross. I just want to crawl...

I feel really dizzy right now. This day has gone by so fast- I don't know where it has gone. So much shit has gone on at work today- I can't even think straight. My brain hurts- I feel like crap.I...

I just want to write and say thank you to everyone on DS for your support. You all are such wonderful and encouraging people.Today has been a MUCH better day than this past week. I went to practice...