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Friday journal...Difficult. Frustrating, but okay session this morning. Thought that we left off at which we will come back to on Monday is 'I don't feel like anything is accomplished unless I see...

it's been rough. food has been ok. weight stayed the same when i saw jill on tuesday. didn't decrease like it had the past two weeks. i should be happy with that. but i it didn't sit right with...

Good few days.Thursday had a good and much-needed session with Joanna.Friday I was very busy working all day.Saturday worked all day and then hung out with Blair. Steve text me that he...

Yesterday was really good! I was in a great mood all day and ended up having a really good session with Joanna. and i have to eat my words, because she did get an opening and i am seeing her tonight...

I have been wrapped up in so much shit that I forgot to mention the best news ever!! While I spoke with my Oma and Opa yesterday they told me news that left me speechless. They said that they are...

Saturday was much better than my shitty Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. I failed to mention all that happened on Thursday that made the day so bad. First I had to open at PetSmart, my shift was from...

Things are just bouncing around my mind like a pinball machine.Yesterday and today have both become lousy crappy ass days. Joanna said that it appears that I am sliding. This is not a good thing-...

Doing well with food again.Up and down moods.Extremely horrible body image.Lots of ED thoughts.Yesterday in therapy my head WAS there, but I kind of had a fake mood. I didn't allow my self to feel...

sooooooooooo tired!Had a great day :)I am not skipping any meals, and I have packed all my meals to take with me to work wihich is good! I have eaten everything I have brought as well. The difficulty...

Where am I? Where is Steffanie Alexis McKay?I sure as hell was not there in Therapy today. Steffanie has clearly checked out for the past few days. Peaced out. Gone.Steffanie's eating disorder...

Been  having and still am having REALLY BAD body image thoughts. Cringing at the sight of myself.Many thoughts of wanting to decrease and not follow my meal plan. Lots of uncomfortable feelings...

So last night I could not control myself at all. I knew that I was going to do something stupid. I sent an email to Joanna. I had not done that since before going into the hospital. I feel horrible...

I really have no idea what to do right now and i am having a lot of difficulty dealing with this on my own. I just told Carlos that I picked up an extra dog for the next few days and one of this dogs...

So the finance shit started yesterday when I asked my father about the refund for the plane ticket. I do rely on them at the moment to help with my health bills. They pay for all of that but my...

Clearly today just is not my day. My dad wanted to talk to me about finances etc since I was upset from this morning. I finally called him back tonight because my mom send me an email saying that I...