tuxedomck

Everything is falling apart.My best friend is in the hospital again and I am a mess.I love her.I started taking 1/2 my meds- that didnt turn out well, so 2 weeks later i went back on them full. bad...

been a long time.things were really bad.then this past 1 1/2 weeks have been really good.surpirsed my sister and family at her last race of the year in philly on friday. that was amazing.still...

Life. Life is good. Life is bad. Life has ups. Life has downs. Life is crazy. Life is calm. Mine seems to be taking all of the above recently. More so the negative. Struggling but trying harder than...

Whatever gender you are your are normal. Does gender even matter? FUCK NO! Who cares what you are! Be who you are and who you were born to be. Why does one have to be labeled as male or female? I see...

I went to a support group on Wednesday night. That was a huge step for me. It was incredibly hard. The usual moderator is the intake coordinator from Dominion (the last IP I went to) but she was out...

Pissed.Just wrote a good update journal to follow up from my last one....and I delted it some how. So fuck it. Not writing it all again.Had a pretty good day yesterday. Dad said to me, "I just need...

This week has been hard...ED wise.Monday in therapy half way through she asked me if it was weird for me to think that my feelings/emotions/thoughts are important. After that question I completely...

Yesterday was my last day at PetSmart!! Ended on a great note because a turtle that I have been nursing back to health FINALLY made progress. Here's the background info; person bought African side...

Past week in decent mood.This morning we put an offer on a 2bedroom/2bathroom condo. Just heard that they accepted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We made it 12K less than what the place was up for sale- and they...

As you can tell I have already diminished the amount of time that I put into writing and responding to other's on DS. I think this is the best for me. Otherwise I spend too much time thinking about...

Today was....eh...survivable. Not as bad as yesterday but I still was in a funk.Here is something I typed up last night....basically it's for me to read to Joanna when I see her on Monday..."I feel...

Having a really hard, bad, difficult day.Wanting to disappear.Really want to hurt myself.Want to purge. I need to feel pain. Some how. Some where. Some thing.

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .................besides that....finally made an appointment with my psychiatrist for Fridaytherapy is really hard right nowi think i might of...

Doing a little better.Went to Georgia this weekend to visit my sister at school for the first time. It was nice- rainy but nice.Went to the aquarium yesterday which was nice. So cool actually.OMG- I...

Basic run down:Been having a lot of uncontrollable breakdowns, but did a little better this week.Having HORRIBLE body image issues- I want to crawl out of my skin. I can feel every minute change in...