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This morning I was so very upset. At first I tried to just let it roll off my shoulders, but then became angry, and eventually upset enough to make me cry. NO THIS IS NOT TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL BAD...

Dead tired again. Weighed in at #98.8 this morning. Thank Goodness! I was terrified that it was going to go up a lot because of this past weekend and all the nasty fattening foods I ate. I really...

Woke up to the sun shining through the blinds in my bedroom. What a beautiful morning. Even though my eyes were burning and my throat hurt like hell, I managed to get myself out of bed.Made and...

Just got home from racing today. This morning I was excited again to race. After the first two races I juts wanted to go home. I was exhausted. My throat hurt and I just didn't want to race anymore....

Happy. Anxious. Elated. Sad. Anxious. Nervous and terrified.Those are the words in order that describe my feelings throughout today. How isit possible to change so drastically like this throughout...

"There are people on shore who see you struggle and yell, "let go of the log!" But you are unable to do so because you have no confidence in your ability to make it to shore. To recover from...

The session with Joanna went really well!! She thinks I probably got food poisoning. Anyways she was proud how I have handled everything this weekend and last night!! I am actually happy with myself...

Today has been great so far! Carlos was so loving this morning! Like I said last night, it was like nothing ever happened. We spent a few hours mid day together as well. Now I am about to go to...

Ok so I came home and it was weird. I didn't think he would get overThis but it was like nothing happened. Done. Gone. I'm happyThat i didn't have to talk about it. Now I'm not sure if i should give...

The entire time in lecture and even now in lab I have not been able to focus. Carlos has not sent me any messages or anything. When I left my apartment I was a wreck and called my dad. He listened....

Fuck. Carlos just found out that I weigh below a hundred pounds. FUCK FUCK FUCK. He said, so you don't give a shit anymore and clearly don't love me. I told him that it stayed the same from last week...

This morning was great. Did my typical dog walks and got asked by an old client to do a special walk today! So I took it and it was during the time that I was supposed to meet with Joanna.After that...

Well the day ended up turning around when I got to microbiology class. I was completely terrified for my exam, as I could not focus to study today with what went on earlier. I took it. After the...

Saturday night, yesterday and this morning were GREAT! Yesterday was a beautiful morning! A little overcast and humid, but nice. I woke up at 0600 to go down to the river and Cox for the Seniors and...

Good morning all. Today is a new day, a new start, and a fresh beginning. So that is how I am going to take today.I apologize to all of those that I made uncomfortable, frustrated, angry, upset,...