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I am going to blow right about now. I cannot contain my feelings/emotions anymore today. Maybe I should have not written what I did yesterday about changing. When I feel the way I do right now, I...

joannafirst i am going to say that i had written a long email about my frustrations, anger, etc. earlier that i printed off and then deleted from my computer so i would not be able to send it to you....

Today was miserable in session. I read her what I wrote about the past two days and then she went over the email I sent her yesterday. Some things were fine but then when we got to the last part of...

Ok and here is the rest of the shit that went on today. Also now that im above weight I'm dropping the damn boost. Joanna,I called the two psychiatrists you recommended. Dr Caesar was very nice and...

what the fuck. i finally wrote a journal and it didn't appear. i get more pissed off as the day goes on. luckily its 830 at night and i have two beers. what i said was along the lines of....FUCK...

Very productive day!!Seeing Jill today was very productive as well, though I did leave feeling very frustrated. i was so proud of my change in eating habits and had such high hopes that the scale...

Today was a very hard day in therapy. Since my therapy session on Monday I have been working my ass off. Joanna said today that even if I get to 100 pounds and am following everything and working...

This is much harder than I thought it would be. I thought it would be easy and no problem to just go ahead and eat more, but it's not. It's fucking hard. Much harder than I thought it would be. I...

JoannaI can't stop thinking about yesterday. Just now while I was in the shower I did some thinking of what you said yesterday in regards to how I am in control and I can eat more and gain weight if...

Today's session was horrible. We talked about food, eating, weight the whole fuckiny time. It was bad.My dietitian talked to my therapist and said I was underweight and am a harm to myself. She...

14 July 2011A day to celebrate life. A life to remember. To remember a truely amazing woman. A woman who was a wife, mother, and friend. Prue Welsh.The first time I met Prue was at a regatta for...

Home again. So happy to see my babies :) (that is pisco and the little one). It is weird being back home though. The cruise was amazing. It was so wonderful having so much one on one time with...

I am so fucking upset right now. I shouldn't be. It's so stupid. I bought my mom some really nice marmalade from the bahamas. I didn't realize it is considered a liquid. At security they said I...

Today we are in Key West. It is our last day on the cruise. Tomorrow we get backTo Miami and fly home. It has been wonderful. The ship is a lot smaller and older than ones I have been on in the past-...

Food food food. Why do we even need it. Can't someone just create a pill that will nourish your body. Nevermind- that would just make it easier to not eat and lose weight.I am sitting at the airport...