designing

I am alone today, and will be tonight and will be tomorrow.

I am feeling 'in comparison to' other peoples' lives right now.

Not self posessed but submissive to what my loneliness means.

I think I can tell myself the reality here. In knowing that I am comparing

my life with others around me, I can hopefully grab on to how I would like to live

and what I would like to do.

Taking that ownership - to be willing to step out on my own and still commit whether

or not anyone else recognizes it or not. It's so strange, I literally have done this before...

I have walked down this kind of path before and I find myself alone. Ah well.

I will be grateful for what I have in my life. The friends and family and good moments.