malibumark

I am having misgivings about a bunch of things, I don't have the answers right now.I did have a nip of some "Calvados" a few hours ago...it could be coloring my outlook thoughit was quite a while...

So I am just recapping my Monday (which is the last day of the weekend for me.)It's helping me sort through my nervousness.I woke up and put on some clothes and went to the Starbucks. Got a drinkand...

I had a relatively good day today. Still getting over the phone call from my Aunt last night.I went to yoga (which was great!) and then visited with my family which was also very very good.I got home...

I seem to find peace in my life and then I have an aunt who calls me and attacksincessantly until I'm cowed. I just feel really depressed and like I have to figure my worldout all over again after...

Today I came home from work, and after a little bit, while going about tasks, I started to feel really down on myself and depressed - but I stopped myself,I realized where it started within me...

I am catching myself letting one negative feeling turning into a global outlook.I went to work this morning - feeling not all there in the head but I kept on workingand all got better and done well....

It's been a really fruitful day. I went to work at the market and while thereI started to see and listen what my thoughts were as i worked.  I felt anxiousand stressed and then I thought about...

i kind of lost my discipline today. I didn't make it to yoga.I can get that way at times when I am here at home.It's a really expensive membership and when I get homeI just lose sight of things at...

I have had a full day so far. Woke at 3am, got to the job - and worked until 8am.Came home. Had lunch. Changed clothes...and went to the office for a couple of hours.Followed my routines and now it's...

I went out today and went to the Starbucks. The same seat is open most times and so I like it and sit there next to the window. Many times that I go there, there is a man in the same corner with a...

I am just coming to see how if I feel like I don't percieve I have control of an outcome, saywith the pursuit of my paintings - I tend to shut down... and shut it off...I can't dothat anymore...there...

Right now I kind of just need to know my place in the world. I wish I were among friends or family.So I am writing here.I was with my family earlier today- and then I came home. Getting back to being...

I saw my therapist on Friday and it really was a good but also powerful meeting.I am just moving forward with my days and yet I also am feeling as though I am in unchartedterritories. In some ways I...

I came home from work today. It's the start of my weekend.I didn't really have much planned - but I made lunch and then I puton load of laundry (cleaning the week's work of clothing) and then I went...