like a wire loose?
do any of you guys experience this? for some reason, like right now,
i had an inspiring time of going out to a park I had never been to before.
I had done all my chores and then took the time to go to the park.
I know there's a side to me that sometimes works myself into a corner when I have down time
- where I just won't want to move - but I know too there's an exuberant adventure loving
lust for life within me. This morning before doing my chores I nearly backed myself
into that corner while lounging in bed - but I just said "no" to myself "i'm not gonna go there!"
and I just got up and started the day- cleaning, playing with Blue. Then I started to get amped
about going to the park - that 'backed into the corner' feeling where I wouldn't want to make a move
was put aside and I went to the park - really psyched I went.
Now I am at home - and I don't have much planned else, I suppose there are things I could do
like vacuum or make the bed - better both - but I am feeling that backed into a corner feeling again
where I just want to sit on the couch and just stuff my face full of food... I don't want to go there!!
I think it's much about me wanting to be with people now too. I think part of the day I am glad to have for
myself, to myself, but I know I'd like to be with people too - and so much of the time I don't make that leap of logic.
In fact when I don't know what I want in moments like that I feel like there is something wrong with me...But in the final analysis - after talking to my sister about it, it's perfectly normal to want to be with others and need to be with others
as part of a healthy daily helping of life experiences. Just when I start feeling that woe - it feels like danger.
I still feel the dread coming on - I am going to fight it
and make a good day about it - oh beautiful vacuum cleaner I hear my name you are calling ! hahaah :)
peace and be well!!
Mark
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I think I hear my vacuum cleaner calling your name, too. . . I'll even make you a snack while you are making to much noise for easy conversation.
I try not to beat myself too hard when I think my way into creepy corners of my mind. I find myself comforted by growing my faith that I can find my way out any time I get around to wanting to. Meanwhile, my pet spiders and snakes need feeding. Can you bring Blue when you answer my vacuum cleaner's call?
Oopsie? ? ? Did *I* say that?
I am afraid your snakes and spiders would be snacks for Blue. He is fascinated by the random fly or creepy crawly.
Perhaps we could sell tickets to the match between Blue and my bull snake? It would off-set the plane ticket you'll need to answer my vacuum's call.
Big hug Marky..... I think that we all have times like this.... I know that I do ...As much as it feels good to have chores done it takes some effort at times to get into doing them
I'm glad that you got out for a bit LC..... xo
Thanks Arfie and Jan!