malibumark

very much looking forward to tomorrow.i am trying to figure out why i am so tired and body is stiff..Feeling old and out of shape (maybe because I am?)i did a big grocery shopping today and I read...

I'm a little unstable, a little unsure but so far, so good.I want to make my days about something good and better.Can't wait for all this to be over.

I've have a nervous side to me that has made decision making an issue for me.I have been afraid of commitment until later years when I decided to commit in a truedraconian way. It was time for me -...

feeling like I have gotten too dependent on my therapist. I was feeling likeI wanted to call her earlier - as if she could save me. I have to find my own answersin life. She helps and has helped me...

For some reason sometimes I do things that are about denying my experience or numbing out to my experience you know like food or going to sleep earliy or drinking or different things like that. I...

My mind may be a big macaroni scrambled egg salad - there may be a sadness about theday for some reason - but I'll just choose not to let that be my 'decider' - I'll choosehappy and though my anxiety...

I know something is not right within me. I have to believe in the choice I have to deal with it. My moods are on an intense edge of swinging hi and low, from a sense of well being and control, to...

I am here alone, in the living room. Blue absconded under the bed. As we get to knoweach other - he seems less and less like he wants to be a pet. He likes to be servicedbut when I don't pay...

feeling pretty lost this morning. got to take care of the cat..he is meowing - that means either "I am bored" and also that "I need attention" or "I need food."I don't know why I slipped last night...

Oh dear. I find myself aware of that engine within - leaning towards the gnashing and gnarling -I have it 'in check' - but I do definitely have the drive still. Been doing laundry, been eating...