malibumark

going to the meds doctor today as I do once a quarter.I then go to my therapist at 345p. Feeling a little out of control.This morning I made a wrong turn mentally at work. I fear.I need to choose the...

it's like the front of my head is kind of on fired.bizarre. I will lift some weights. I didn't make it to yoga.:( 

I went to work this morning - same ole' same ole' - positive outlook and - got to work- stayed calm and did good work. It's easy to stay directed when I am thinkingin terms of someone else....working...

My illness makes me feel isolated. I sense a difference about me that raises an alarm within that I am different and so my anxiety flairs up and exacerbates an already sense of loneliness. I am...

I went to work this morning....lost and depressed, challenged to find the answers again for the day.Wasn't so motivated when I got to work, I felt the cold shoulder from some of my workmatesbut I...

I had a pretty desperate night last night - and got up for work this morning and went forward.As I started to work, I felt I wasn't moving quickly enough and that I wasn't doing a very good job.I...

when I can't manage my feelings well, it feels like I am in danger and alarm bells are going offit feels like I am wrong or just totally dismayed.so much of my time when alone is about trying to...

I am struggling with ideas this morning, but I am recognizing the commonalityof effort that everyone  has in starting their day. We must find our motivation,we must find our direction and self...

I woke up this morning, much earlier than the sunrise and I got dressedand went for a walk to the Starbucks. I was reeling with regret and anxiousnessfrom yesterday's decision - my decision - to...

I said this to my therapist - but I will record it here too - I feel like I 'so get into' the 'order' and 'structure' of my lifeto kind of numb out from it - if that makes sense.  I went to my...

I was watching 'the game' but turned it off. I'll probably tune in again in a bit - but just startedto feel kind of anxious in the solitude of my apartment. Some people are better at being alone than...

I went to work this morning, then came home and it's just been a mellowday at home. I bought a huge bunch of food and drink at the Trader Joe's.I took a long walk to the Starbucks, about a mile...

I am feeling like I am underwater tonight dealing with a lot of subjectivity and in realizing it and also recognizing that I've got to handle it. The metaphor of drowning is something a therapist one...

I went to therapy just a little while ago. It left me feeling kind of hollow..I went and got a piece of cake at the Bakery Cafe and now I am back at my place.I went into therapy feeling like I had...