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I've been able to process my feelings here - write about them,think about them and at times have clarity too. I don't know if what I am going through is an after effectof the holidays and the coming...

I went to sleep last night, kind of hurting as my friend Jan knows,and I woke up kind of feeling like I was in a hole. I felt like a really flawedperson - with no joy - with no prospect, just...

Feeling the sadness of having mental health struggles and the fact that we are all social distancing. This time is hard on all of us and sending a big hug out there to our wonderful community.

I was noticing something last night that I noticed this morning. I started to dream again ofwanting things in my life and yet was wisened to the process, the maturity of being self responsibleas...

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merry christmas everybody. there's so much to be grateful for..I was with my family yesterday for most of the day and it was nice.then I came home and Blue wanted lots of attention..I went to bed...

part my healing, a real watershed moment, was when I was realizingas I talked to my therapist, at the time (many years ago), was that I hadto be responsible for my feelings and that epiphany lent...

had a good day here... things were understood, understandable and I have a new perspectivethat is helping me along the way. everyone has their ideal of how things should be - and they bringthat to...

Too much time alone today. Feeling lots of pressure.Go to work in the morning.have a good night everyone!

all this idecision of 'what do I do' and wondering 'would' or 'should'the time in my life will pass anywaybetter to actand value the time i'm havingme and Blue are making a morning of fun with the...

I went to Starbucks this morning - first and only one there as they opened the shop at 5am.The baristas have their routine of welcoming people and asking about our daybut for some reason this morning...

there are moments when you experience some thingsthat seem to knock you out of your mind - knock you out of your pathand maybe what you were imagining you would lead with for your nextgoal and then...

mmm. I went to work today and had a good day at work...then came home and got a phone callfrom my Dad. He sounded sad but in retrospect it was his back issues which were bringing him down.He said he...

Been through a lot of evolutions, iterations today for lack of a better way to say it. I've done what I've needed to do today and the slightest things now are making me manic ungrounded and...

I felt pretty embarassed this morning from posting the last post. I felt itjust was pretty crazy. I have to say though in the process of dealing with thatand beautiful support from friends, I have...