feeling better today

I went to sleep last night, kind of hurting as my friend Jan knows,


and I woke up kind of feeling like I was in a hole. I felt like a really flawed


person - with no joy - with no prospect, just fractured and here.


I decided to go through the paces of going to Starbucks where, even though


'the going out' was a pleasure, I just felt like I didn't know what I was going


to get in terms of social interaction.


I came home again after that, felt just split and kind of moody - but something in 


me told me to read my notes from last night that I have in my DRAFTS folder of my email


and with that I was inspired...I decided to keep positive. I decided (as one friend put it) to CHOOSE HAPPY.


I've been sitting here watching the morning news while it's been raining on and off now...


and I realized I am just going to choose what I am going to do. I am NOT going to watch TV all day away.


I am going to break out the umbrella and go for a walk. 


Anyways - I think what I just wanted to write about is the 'choosing aspect' of what I was going to do


about my mood. I just started to choose to do things that made me feel valuable - that i valued as well..


and that helped change my outlook...a little, bit by bit.


I hope you guys are having a good start to the week.


peace and good vibes,


Mark

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Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD

You are valuable LC and I am so glad that those thoughts helped to change your day.....Big hug....xo
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Jan!!!
arfie
arfie

I can never resist a rousing Gene Kelly imitation when I go walking in the rain. "Just singing in the rain. . ."

Good thing all the sane folks stay inside when it rains, huh?

Congrats on finding the empowerment value of choosing our emotional take on life. Knowing I have a choice makes it easier to smile, even on a bad day.

"What a glorious feeling, I'm hap-hap-happy again
"Just singing, singing in the rain."

Now I gotta see if I can dig up that movie. It's been so long that I almost credited Fred Astaire for the song.

For what it's worth
I think it's the flaws which make people interesting. Who wants to talk to a centerfold?
The greatest gift you can give yourself is the real you.
malibumark
malibumark

thanks arfie. it's raining so hard today I ended up staying indoors. i started to beat myself
up about it as I've mostly had the tv on - but did take care of a few bills and the mail.
it's just raining too hard - thanks for the good outlook to take!
Community LeaderMid
Mid

Making the time inside during a heavy rain means doing the inside exercise to help lift the 'feeling depression' as I call it.

You're onto the right way to help yourself stay in balance doing what you're doing!

Hurrah!
malibumark
malibumark

thanks mid!