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- I had a breakdown from 2006-2009... I overdosed on prescription psychiatric drugs 2x in 2007. I had one plan to commit suicide that I didn't try, which was to go to the river and take sleeping pills and jump in. I don't want to do that now, but...
- My mom had a memory of praying with her mom at age 5 at a prayer meeting; she thinks that was after her brother raped her....this was a recovered memory. Sometimes I wonder if he did something to me at that age that I don't remember. I started...
- the story line right now on Days is about Father Eric, a priest who was drugged and raped by a woman, mainly because she wanted to make a sex tape and have him defrocked because she hates Eric's mother, Marlena. I keep watching clips and getting...
- i used to play cards with my uncle in his bedroom. He got inappropriate a few times, he said if I played the wrong card, he would "rub my *&^^#"....I also remember him "tickling me" by putting his fingers up my leg when I was wearing shorts.all this...
- it's so hard to deal with the things my uncle did. He has a low IQ due to an extra chromosome and is emotionally child-like. My other uncle feels like it's "not his fault" and he doesn't understand. But he scared so much when he attacked me. I...
- What my uncle did to me was not fault. It sucks that I had a breakdown and had to repeat my senior year. I deserve to be happy. I am going to have lattes and bike around and be happy. I am going to enjoy sex with my husband. Everyone who wanted to...
- My daughter has always wanted a dog, but my husband is allergic and has asthma. We bought a standard poodle puppy in July. He has been wonderful. But she has always been rough with him. She treats him like a kid brother, I guess. She has a little...
- I guess being overweight is more common now, but as a tall, big girl growing up in the '80s and '90s, I felt like I stood out like a sore thumb. Sometimes it seemed that the petite girls were treated like princesses and you were either a princess or...
- I don't dispute I've had 2 breakdowns. One was in 1995 after my uncle sexually assaulted me.this was especially horrible because I went in my grandmother's bedroom to mourn that she had died and he followed me in there to hurt me. During a...
- I did a good job of getting my weight and lymphedema down, but after losing over 100 lbs., I've been stuck at a plateau for two years. A neighbor got me started with Herbalife. It is expensive, but I have lost 11 lbs. in less than two months. I am...
- sometimes I wonder if my sexual feelings are messed up. I seem to get crushes on my husband's friends too much... I am also bisexual and that's confusing, too. I think I have a sex/fear attachment issue. Like if I sit by an attractive adult that I...
- Part of me feels badly about how I acted out after my uncle attacked and during my second breakdown in 2006, but I also feel that I was harshly punished in both cases. It's confusing. I think I started bothering a jerk, popular guy because I wanted...
- I am bi, but because of past sexual assaults and trauma, sometimes I just feel uncomfortable around people I'm attracted to (which is most decent looking men and women who are over 25 and under 60 and not relatives). so basically, I'm uncomfortable...
- it's so hard! I lost a lot of weight, but I've been sitting on a plateau for a while, even though I bike every day and wear my compression stockings. I am recovering from singing in a choir several days in a row, which I so wanted to do. Then I...
- I had a rough childhood and there were a lot of girl cliques at my school. i had brothers so sometimes it seemed a bit easier to get along with the boys. Sometimes I have negative feelings about other women because I have perceptions that attractive...