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- my crush on my current dance instructor still hasn't gone away. Going on a trip a nearby lake and going to stay at a lodge that weekend, in two weeks. Part of me worries about spending time with him. He almost drove me to a dance trip in a nearby...
- .... I had added a note on my Better Business Bureau complaint that the owner had ran after my ex-dance instructor. The BBB had added that to my complaint than removed it. Felt upset; I check the link to my complaint when I feel triggered....
- Mom and brother insisted I go with them to a German restaurant Tuesday; they had a coupon and would pay for my lunch.mother is online dating in her 60s. So frustrating to spend time with her. She discussed details of her date en route. which made me...
- first mass with new priest. Thinking about how my dad and then the old priest passed away last year and what life means. Saw a vision of the new priest as a priest- puppet while he was speaking; was this mental illness or the Holy Spirit showing me...
- finally opened up about my ex-dance teacher to one of my new dance teachers. He says my ex teacher is known to be immature (he's in his twenties), and, fortuneately, sticks to ballroom and doesn't dance in our swing community. Feeling a little...
- so.... was interested in being a dance extra in a small movie for a private wedding. Was excited, but two people in the group were from the studio that hurt me. Felt triggered, but I decided to go through with it. The one actually there seems nice...
- she thinks I'm better... feel lost and alone, even though i can still make an appointment if I want....the dance group is going well. I freaked out yesterday though- a letter came from the State Dept. of Consumer Complaints; I trembled before...
- goodness, at the beginning of choir "season" last fall, I overheard a conversation between a soloist alto and the young man becoming a priest about how great the dance community is. Felt upset. Also, sort of jealous of this alto. I wish I had a...
- feeling numbed out. Haven't been able to find a job or pass the road test. Feel like life passed me by. Trying to find meaning.... felt a glimmer of spirituality in choir practice last night. Feeling unhappy in marriage. There aren't any choices....
- i apologize in advance for more dance drama discussion,so, after kind of strange interactions with "Trey" at the brewery, and my Facebook message wondering if it had anything to do with another dance studio, and he didn't really answer, and then his...
- was infatuated with a younger man (he was 23 and I was 37) at our rickshaw job. He was so athletic and got lots of tips from women (we would give rickshaw rides at an outdoor mall; the mall got rid of our service when the new construction ended). He...
- if I stop dancing... pros: no more dance stress, no more anxiety about the social stigma of what happened in 2015, no worries about making men uncomfortable Cons: no choice or autonomy, ex-dance teacher "wins," total loss of all time and effort put...
- mom has gone into Southern belle mode. She's going to diet until she's 140 lbs. or a size 14 at least, she's doing leg lifts on the bed, in preparation for her breakfast with a self-proclaimed Apostle she's met at her church. At Waffle House. I'm...
- will be gone tomorrow night, so I'm not dancing at the brewery. So, last night went to our city's sort of "art mall" and theater/poetry/ dance center at an old renovated cotton mill. I had checked the guest list and hoped no one I was avoiding would...
- so, the dance teacher I'd been having trouble with was at the dance event I was determined to go to last night. It was kind of a renowned swing teacher in from Texas at a brewery I love. So, I wasn't going to let him stop me.but, he wordlessly...