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- visiting Ireland for the first time; everyone seems less angry here! Still concerned about a friend who was suicidal. When I first had a crush on him, I assumed he was kind of a typical male who was sort of bragging on social media because of his...
- it’s funny how things affect me. Instagram suddenly recommended the profile of a man who assaulted me back in high school. Last night, I had a nightmare for the first time in a while. My daughter was taken to prison from a field trip and I...
- hope everyone’s holidays are happier than expected!
- my crush is in the hospital feeling suicidal! He’s not replying to my messages right now so there’s nothing I can do to help
- Not giving up on dance entirely, but it just makes me feel sad right now, so I’m taking a break. Thought about puppets yesterday; I was always giving my stuffed animals characters and voices as a kid and entertained my kids with stuffed animals...
- (This is related to PTSD because my relationships with men are affected by my uncle’s sexual abuse)we’d been talking for months, heated conversations about literature that felt too intense, but he really pm’ed something that hurt me.... “My...
- so, part of being assaulted pretty publicly three years ago is the shame that people may know about it. I finally have officially “taken a break” from dance as my dance group has increasingly become associated with my old dance studio and...
- my dinner at the brewery raised some questions for me. Perhaps I am being paranoid, but the waitress oddly brought my husband an ordinary glass, then came over and apologized, saying, “I forgot you were a member here.” Then, when I went to the...
- It’s really hard only blaming my ex dance teacher who assaulted me and not also being angry at his dance studio, who didn’t fire him. I was getting over it. I’d joined a new dance group, finished therapy, made new friends. My husband has a...
- was triggered by my old dance studio closing, reopening upstairs from a brewery I frequent under the ownership of a couple, one half of which heavily reminds me of being assaulted. Let’s call her “Tori.” Then, my current dance teacher starts...
- reread my old posts about my ex dance instructor, and I really wasn’t doing very well in the year following the assault. I need to let go. I still believe what he did was legally assault and it will never be “okay” that he did that, but I have...
- I accidentally left the store without signing my card; the cashier had dropped some of my stuff and I just forgot to sign for the purchase. the customer service guy came and got me before I biked away and I ran my card again. This sort of thing...
- ... a dancer asked me to promote the Tuesday swing dance group like I do the related Monday group. I told her I wasn’t comfortable because I remembered one of the dance teachers from my old studio and being around him would be like a painful...
- An old friend needs his kidney removed and the daughter of my high school librarian’s daughter died. My supervisor’s son was gunned down a few weeks ago. I don’t why this all hit me hard. My kids also started school this week. August 8...
- havent been sleeping well since I was triggered by family issues during a trip with Mom and brother. Mom kept talking about sex inappropriately and taking food off my plate without asking throughout the trip. They couldn’t function and gave me a...