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- started having nightmares last Year; kind of delayed onset PTSD from being kicked in the vagina from behind by an ex- dance instructor in August '15(he's a guy and a black belt) this was unprovoked, for mildly inappropriate dancing months earlier....
- feelings hurt by a different male dance instructor.sometimes, while I was dancing at the brewery, I noticed the instructors were emphasizing being appropriate while dancing. I didn't think they were talking about me. But he shouted, "I'm...
- ever since my dad died, my son's behavior has worsened. He started making strange noises that he says are tics. He is only 11, but he weighs almost 140 lbs. and his voice is almost as deep as a man's.he's been getting in trouble at school. I've...
- we grounded my son from the computer, but we've been watching Lemony Snicket. It's funny, but the criminal antics of Count Olaf and his theater troupe reminded me of my family. I started to see the criminal tendencies. I felt sorry for my mother...
- thank you, DailyStrength, for helping me during my trauma. I was able to work past so much anger without expressing it in the "real world" or social media. I want to be a better person.
- awful week... son's teacher is very upset over the fact he broke her pencil sharpener; he wanted to see what would happen if the eraser end was put in. He's already had detention as punishment and we paid the school $55 the next day. Then we had...
- i was hit on the butt cheek with a cricket bat by a drunk acquaintance. We were at a bar. I guess I had been flirting with him a little. The cricket bat was kind of a gag of the British themed night out. This was probably in the fall. Very...
- got a reminder card about getting a Pap smear. How am I ever supposed to get one of those again after what happened to me?
- started to realize that my issues with men aren't only rooted in my uncle's abuse; these are also issues with my father. My mother seemed to revel in the fact that she and dad had a special bond and that made me come in second. The message seemed...
- okay,Merry Christmas! Our priest has died, and a young man from our parish is becoming a priest. I hope he can be our new priest, but that's not a given. I could not help but feel twinges of guilt/shame over my dance studio fiasco from 2015 while...
- so hard today. My priest had a heart attack on the day of our choir Christmas concert. He was so supportive of me when I told him about my past and what happened at the dance studio. I don't want him to die like my dad
- Okay, in March, I marched in the St. Patrick's parade. The owner of a German restaurant approached me and acted very very friendly, saying he needed dancers for Oompah. I was excited about it and said yes. He didn't know me and hadn't seen me...
- a facebook friend shared an analysis of a cartoon dealing with relationships and consent yesterday. Couldnt help but think about my issues with my ex dance teacher. Because he felt angry that I MAY have felt sexual during one tango class (all he...
- he had a heart attack two weeks ago and never recovered. I'm riding down to Florida with a nightmarish coterie of my older brothers and a sister in law. Oh, and the return trip will be the coterie plus mother and Dad's ashes. How fitting that my...
- my hubby accidentally broke the TV a week ago. He was expecting a new one to be delivered yesterday and the night before had trouble reaching orgasm. I told him I thought it was stress about the TV; he didn't believe me and worried it was because of...