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- Being in a choir has been very helpful to me. Focusing on singing my part and talking to friends really takes my mind off my troubles. If you aren't religious, secular music groups are good, too. I personally feel the spirit dealing with me and...
- No love for me! I was really traumatized by my uncle, but did not get the support I needed. When I act out, or whenever I'm inappropriate, I am always harshly punished. I want to break the cycle, I get infatuated with a man, bother him, then I get...
- A therapy group showed me the Richard Gere movie about a bipolar man, "Mr. Jones." It was helpful because it showed his illness in a compassionate way. We also watched "What Dreams May Come" with Robin Williams, which may be hard to watch now...
- I feel numb.... I want to give up. I don't see how my life is going to get better.
- French, Spanish, English, New York, Southern, African, or Other?Least sexy accent?
- Before my uncle violently sexually assaulted me at 17, I was miserable. I felt no connection to others and was in denial about how sick and not functional my family was. My future was going to be probably just living with my parents in their hoarded...
- I've read articles about how men can be victims, too and they don't get the sympathy they deserve, but I don't know how true that is. I feel that a man not only has more physical strength to fight off attackers, but, because of sexism, is more...
- After my uncle assaulted me, I lost respect for my body and started making out with strangers I met. My first kiss was with a black man named Curtis. I went into his house after meeting him walking around the block. We made out, but he shooed me...
- I had a big vascular surgery in February and didn't feel right for months.i didn't know my body was producing too much testosterone and my breasts were atrophying. I decided to take dance lessons to cheer me up. I got a crush on the dance...
- Last year, I started realizing the intense crushes I can get on men are partially fear based. figuring that out feels freeing.I also wanted to caution incest survivors against always thinking any sexual issue is related to incest. I was experiencing...
- I have always felt kind of like I had a masculine side, but also liked being a woman. I think it's because I've always had a strong sex drive. This is so weird right now. I'm used to being curvy and having large breasts. But because of a huge weight...
- I am upset right now. I have worked so hard to lose weight for 5 years. I was fed up at nearly 400 lbs. in 2010, battling varicose veins, lymphedema, and hypothyroidism. I did not get gastric bypass, but I started biking after lymphedema therapy. I...
- So, I was desperate to lose weight last year and took a job that required hours of biking, which has helped me so much. I lost 35 lbs., but noticed more veins popping out and started limping. I went back to my vascular surgeon, hoping for a quick...
- My abuser uncle has an extra Y chromosome, he's not very smart, and mean. I always thought he was scary. He doesn't look right. I guess part of me does feel sorry for him, but I think my aunt wants me to feel like nothing he did was his own fault....
- I've just gotten my weight down to the same place it was in '95 when my uncle attacked me. I'm feeling smaller and more vulnerable and having old fear feelings. Not sure how to feel more comfortable right now...