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- I spent most of last year writing my first novel. I really made an effort to hit almost 51,000 words which is a novel but not too long. Querying often felt traumatic because I'm rejection sensitive. I know I'm supposed to not take it personally, but...
- Really thought I was over the 2015 assault. I stopped dancing after the old dance studio closed and some of the dancers joined the dance group. I had joined the group because it was a different kind of dance and far away from the dance studio. Then,...
- Haven't posted here in awhile. My doctor started me on the antidepressant Welbutrin which also can promote weight loss. I was afraid to do that because of my previous bad experiences with some psychiatric drugs, but my doctor knew what class of...
- (I did have a childhood trauma with my aunt's dog biting me on the face; sorry if this isn't quite a usual post for this board) I had a fun time visiting friends at their home last night, but I'm a little bit concerned about their new dog. They love...
- With all the rallies in Georgia, the state next door, and my local representatives in the news pledging to help Trump overturn the election, not caring that not everyone in Alabama would support this, I'm just freaked out. I'm scared local people...
- Feeling sad after mother's death and overwhelmed with the task of cleaning her hoarded house. So worried that my brother is alone in an extremely dangerously toxic house and is going to spiral into even more terrible hoarding.
- Hoping the pandemic comes to a halt and racism ends.... i haven't posted in a long time, but I'm not doing well this week.After years of struggling with any writing that isn't poetry, I'm finally workshopping in a character development class. The...
- Went to my friend's party. Felt some passive aggressive vibes from our dance friend. She ceremonially presented two handmade candles, with a speech no less, to the host and one other special friend, which I felt is a bit impolite to do in front on...
- Got a friend request from an ex-ballroom dance studio owner in another city. I didn't think much about it because he's also friends on social media with a lot of my West Coast swing friends and I accepted it, but then I remembered that my ex dance...
- kind of was saddened today; usually, I follow pop culture pretty well, but sometimes when movies or songs pop up from years of a personal trauma, there are blank spaces. I totally missed “Clueless” and other movies from 1995 as a teenager. I...
- haven’t posted in a while, so here are some updates and concerns....1. The uncle who sexually abused me has been put in a nursing home after my aunt’s death. I believe he may have become violent with his brother because he is very triggered by...
- my husband did tell me about his vasectomy, but i didn’t expect to get so upset afterwards. It started occurring to me that he should have at least discussed it before he did research, found a doctor, and made an appointment. This is the man who...
- I hadn’t known that a lady from church was divorced and had already been remarried for four years. Her son is about my kids age and has gone to my son’s parties. So, I saw her kiss the new tenor in the choir on the lips and asked my friend about...
- I called mother to tell her her sister-in-law had died, and she immediately demanded to know, “where’s the funeral?” And later, insisted we give her a ride. I’ve been distancing myself from her..... my husband got a message last year,...
- Nightmares as a traumatized teenager led me to Excedrin PM and Unisom; eventually, I was taking up to 8 tablets to fall asleep. I remember mixing in some leftover prescription pain killers left over after a surgery, waking up with a rapid heart...