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Another meal increase. I added two things to my meal plan and then am trying an Enlive. It's a juice made by Ensure. I'll try it today and if I don't like it my dieitician and I will switch to...

last night was rough. I had A LOT of thoughts through my head. I was so uncomfortable and disgusted with my body that I wanted to rip apart my body.I wanted to rip my insides out and throw it away. I...

Clearly the nutrition is doing it's job as it is giving me more energy! Even though I definitely have a baby belly like Karin described, I know it will go away and spread out. Today my meal plan was...

Last night laying in bed I said, fuck it. I'm going to do this and do it right. I'll leave when they tell me I am medically steady and ready. It will be fine. They do agree with the weight though- my...

P.S. As time goes on I most likely will NOT write as much. These are basically my updates to my father. Today was partially difficult in that during my family session with carlos because the...

It's weird, I don't have any of the crazy emotions here that I have had constantly over the past months, even through last weekend. I believe it is partly due to the fact that everything is laid out...

First day was good. The meals are fine. They started me low so it's really simple actually, just like I have been eating at home. Today for lunch i'm having vegetable lasagna and dinner some fish....

Been up since 6am. So nervous, scared, anxious, etc. Last night Joanna and I spoke briefly on the phone, and for the first time she actually said, "you need this and you have to go. you made the...

Okay. I was not prepared for this. I had a fantastic session with Joanna today and got a lot accomplished. Basically, I don't think I want to do nursing. I have just been convincing myself that I do...

I did an intake assessment via the phone with the intake coordinator today. I also spoke to my dietitian who met with the Director of the program yesterday. Jill just confirmed my decision to go...

What I sent Joanna yesterday evening...Joanna,I know that I should not send this, yet I am. I have had up's and down's after seeing you this afternoon. I want to say I need help- but then I go back...

Joanna had read the email by the time I went in for our session. I had everything planned to say etc but that didn't happen because of what my dad wrote. I told her my weight yesterday she said (that...

So I was going to write in here what I wrote in my hand written journal. Basically I don't know what to do. Yesterday it was 101.5 Today at the same time I weighed myself yesterday with the exact...

So all I have to be tomorrow is 100.0 and fuck when I weighed myself today it was 101.5 Grrrr.This morning I was planning to go to my father inlaws house to reorganzie the basement for him. LOTS of...

Today was good- I kept busy and even visited my friend who is in the ED unit at Reflections. We had a grand time chatting, ect.Afterwards I did some errands and then met up with my parents to look...