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I sent the letter today and talked to Bill again. Bill is now trying to get me to stay. He wants me to meet with him and Mike this week and try to ‘work things out’. Well he should of said that...

Last night Mike sent me a gchat message saying that he has been looking at one of my freshmen rowers and wants to try him out on varsity. It is known that I strongly feel that every freshmen rower...

I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL MIKE! I AM FURIOUS AND PISSED AS ALL MOTHER FUCKING HELL

Wow what a few crazy ass days! Sat/Sun/Mon have all been bunched together. Have worked A LOT! Back to the grind again with 30 hr/wk at Petsmart, about 8 dog walks a week, plus about 15 hr/wk of...

Thanksgiving has come and gone. I must say that I was presently surprised at how well it went this year. When to Carlos' mom's house for brunch- typical brunch and typical conversation. Gaby was...

Back to the things that could of aided in my horrible moods the past two weeks. This is going into some detail here fyi.As those thoughts came to my head from the past few years, i started having...

1. I have been watching the show 'Make it or break it'. Not a good show for those with eating disorders and those who have danced, done gymnastics, etc in their past. It's a gymnastics show and the...

Today was not a great day.Got off of work from PetSmart at 11am, and was going to immediately go to two dog walks. Well- my front right tire was flat. Fuck. So over the past few months my front right...

I may of found another reason as to why this week has been bothering me so much the past few weeks.  Something bad always seems to happen.3 years ago last friday HE happened2 years ago last...

Man have I had my ups and downs the past few weeks! Woozers!! Wednesday was a ROUGH ass day. Therapy was horrible. End of story.Wednesday night I wrote something that I have in my notebook to look...

well...apparently carlos' mother had not invited us over for thanksgiving and it was carlos just assuming we were going. wish i would of known this. he called his mom tonight to tell her we could...

Sunday I felt like poop.  I was sick all weekend and Sunday night I randomly cried in the shower. I at that moment started contemplating to weigh myself or not the next morning.Monday morning I was...

good session with joanna. spoke about how i turned things around. i need to make a list of what makes me feel better to look back upon for other times like this.to feel good instantly walking certain...

After seeing Joanna. I am so frustrated and upset. I feel like I am not allowed to feel miserable and poor, that I should hide these feelings and emotions. Is it not possible that I could feel this...

All I can do is cry.  I snapped at Carlos- well not really but I broke my cool and ended up crying in front of him. My back was itching really badly and he scratched it for me but then stopped.  I...