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I have been extremely exhausted all week. I am not sleeping well at all. Joanna is still perplexed by all of this since I am on trazadone. I wake up multiple times at night and can barely keep my...

 Crew meeting tonight. Well prior to going I was pretty upset to begin with. At the beginning of the meeting the President, Bill, asked the coaches to say something to start off the meeting. So Mike...

so jsut now before carlos left for work he gave me another list of people he came up with. then i noticed his mom didnt put his father or any of his fathers relatives down. carlos then said he...

so....that 'friend' lindsay just sent me a message on facebook saying 'hi, how are you'. I said fine and she asked if i went ot that program in falls church. What a fucking idiot. I told her a week...

NO MORE ENSURE!!! Jill took me off my Ensure supplements today!!! Just enlive now!!!! That was my good news of the day. Other good news is that I had dinner with a friend from Reflections- though I...

I am so exhausted. All that I have done the past many days has caught up with me. And I think I have fucked myself over regarding all I have to do this week. I took on two more clients just for this...

Weekend has been busy- which is good. I have had a lot of negative thoughts and did slip on food I think, but then again am not really sure.Friday afternoon after my dog walks I went to my parent's...

I have been in a very positive, upbeat, and wonderful mood today! Though I did something bad this morning :( I was tired of being a fat lazy ass and had to move. I couldn't take it any longer. So I...

-didn't like it when Carlos said that I am looking more like a woman and not a little girl. Fuck that. I want to be a little girl. Fuck growing up.-I hate my boobs. I'd rather starve and have them...

Great night!!Just shipped my parents off to Germany for 3 weeks. And we are having a major thunderstorm!! Best night ever!!

Maybe I didn’t really learn to regulate my emotions… I am now pondering as to whether I agree with what Marisa had mentioned to Joanna in regards to regulating my emotions. I feel there are A LOT...

I am one massive fat fuck right now. Following everything and doing well, but in complete utter disgust with my body. Fat is flowing out everywhere. My boobs are huge. I feel fat flowing out of my...

Today went well. It was odd not going to Reflections, and to be quite honest, I missed it. I really miss Lydia. She came in about 1 1/2 weeks ago to the program and I took her in under my wing. She...

Discharged. I can't believe the day is here. I have never had this much confidence and determination in myself before.This program has been amazing. It has been challenging, but very helpful. Not...

Discharge set for friday! New job starts a week later!!