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Fuck. Carlos just found out that I weigh below a hundred pounds. FUCK FUCK FUCK. He said, so you don't give a shit anymore and clearly don't love me. I told him that it stayed the same from last week...

This morning was great. Did my typical dog walks and got asked by an old client to do a special walk today! So I took it and it was during the time that I was supposed to meet with Joanna.After that...

Well the day ended up turning around when I got to microbiology class. I was completely terrified for my exam, as I could not focus to study today with what went on earlier. I took it. After the...

Saturday night, yesterday and this morning were GREAT! Yesterday was a beautiful morning! A little overcast and humid, but nice. I woke up at 0600 to go down to the river and Cox for the Seniors and...

Good morning all. Today is a new day, a new start, and a fresh beginning. So that is how I am going to take today.I apologize to all of those that I made uncomfortable, frustrated, angry, upset,...

Prior to taking my lab practical yesterday, I was all over the fucking place. I wrote the following in my journal, "I'm scared. Anxiety through the roof. Shaking. Nervous. About to break down in...

Do I get pleasure from pain? Am I one of those people? We think so...that's what we talked about in therapy (well for the 2nd half). The first half was about fucking food. Apparently what I thought...

Yesterday:Is it possible for someone to have an eating disorder, drop to 70lbs, not get professional help, not need medical attention and then have 3 good friends that were worried and concerned...

Flower passed away today. Yes Karin youre probably be happy bc its one less 'rodent' you have to hear abOut. I will write more later. Today has been very hard- multiple crying episodes. ThisMorning...

The one thing that I cannot get out of my mind at the moment is Lindsay, one of my friends. She has always called me her BFF, but she is not my BFF. I always go along with what she says just to make...

Today has been obsurdly difficult...I woke up feeling exhausted. From 4am on I could not sleep... My stomach felt empty so I weighed myself...99.0...went down 1lb. Yay! I felt an overwhelming shot of...

Woke up early this morning to cox for SAW at CRC. Extremely exhausted. My eyes hurt. I can never seem to get enough sleep these days. After SAW a lot of the rowers came up to me to thank me for...

Woke up and laid in bed for quite some time. My eyes burned because I was tired. I wanted to go back to sleep. I did not though. The thought of whether I should weigh myself or not went through my...

To weigh myself…or not? Those were the words that I awoke to in my mind. Carlos called me and that was all that came to my mind. He said he was on 355 coming home. I tried to calculate how much...

“In the past the seasons, the moon phases, the ebb and flow of the tides, and nature's life-death-rebirth cycle were looked to for the answers to the mysteries of life. But as time has passed,...