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sooooooooooo tired!Had a great day :)I am not skipping any meals, and I have packed all my meals to take with me to work wihich is good! I have eaten everything I have brought as well. The difficulty...

Where am I? Where is Steffanie Alexis McKay?I sure as hell was not there in Therapy today. Steffanie has clearly checked out for the past few days. Peaced out. Gone.Steffanie's eating disorder...

Been  having and still am having REALLY BAD body image thoughts. Cringing at the sight of myself.Many thoughts of wanting to decrease and not follow my meal plan. Lots of uncomfortable feelings...

So last night I could not control myself at all. I knew that I was going to do something stupid. I sent an email to Joanna. I had not done that since before going into the hospital. I feel horrible...

I really have no idea what to do right now and i am having a lot of difficulty dealing with this on my own. I just told Carlos that I picked up an extra dog for the next few days and one of this dogs...

So the finance shit started yesterday when I asked my father about the refund for the plane ticket. I do rely on them at the moment to help with my health bills. They pay for all of that but my...

Clearly today just is not my day. My dad wanted to talk to me about finances etc since I was upset from this morning. I finally called him back tonight because my mom send me an email saying that I...

Something has seriously happened with my moods. They are completedly wacked now.I have been looking for dates and such to go and visit my sister. My dad said I was getting money back from my tiecket...

Today was HARD AS SHIT.The depressing, cold, rainy, overcast weather makes things so much worse for me. Woke up in a depressed lazy mood. Did not want to get out of bed, but when I got up I couldn't...

Yesterday I had a GREAT therapy session :) When I was telling joanna about the day and night before, she was actually laughing at how i acted and responded to my parents. Also at what i had said at...

Mom and dad came home last night. I really wish I could send my mother back to Germany….FOR GOOD! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!! Yesterday was wonderful- until I picked my mother and dad up from the airport. I...

Today starts the countdown. 365 days until our wedding :) Again today I spent the morning trying to figure out jobs etc. I spoke with the owner of the pet walking company i work for, and she gave me...

today sucks.woke up at 5am for no reason. woke up every hour for no reason and then eventually could not go back to sleep.i dont want to do anything and i dont feel like anything is going to change...

So...I woke up every hour last night and finally decided to get up at 5am.  Been thinking a lot about what i can do as a job that incorporates working with animals. So many ideas have come up.But...

Yesterday:What the hell do I want to do in life? I want to work in the health field- health promotion/community health/health education- promotes health awareness and healthy living. But how do I get...