Goodbye All...
The time has come for me to say goodbye.
Not to life just yet, but to DS.
I appreciate all the friendships and support that I have recieved on here, but I think in order to move away from all the attention I receive, I need to get away from some things that increase the amount of attention I get. I have a feeling that part of me being on here is because I want attention from others in a sneaky way. I don't feel bad about getting attention from people on here because it's my journal. Well, that's not right. I should be caring about the others on here and realizing that everyone is struggling and deserves support- not just me.
So I am going to take a step and move away from DS.
I still have my blog that I use as my 'real' journal and if you want to follow me on that- that's fine. Just shoot me an email at steffanie.mckay@gmail.com or find me on FB.
I am going to miss you all and all your supportive comments- but I think this might be a good step for me. I need to somehow start weaning myself away from all the possible sneaky things I do for attention. Yes- when I do these things I don't realize at the moment, but the more I think about it the more things I can find in my past that I have done just to get someone to notice me. It's sad and pathetic sounding I know.
I'm going to keep this up for this weekend, but come Sunday night...Goodbye DS and my account will be deleted.
I don't want pity comments about me leaving- I don't want to get attention from leaving- that is not what I want. I just want to make the announcement so that no one thinks I feel off the side of the earth or left because of what people were saying- It has nothing to do with either of those things.
Love to all, you know how to find me.
Xx
Tux-E
Not to life just yet, but to DS.
I appreciate all the friendships and support that I have recieved on here, but I think in order to move away from all the attention I receive, I need to get away from some things that increase the amount of attention I get. I have a feeling that part of me being on here is because I want attention from others in a sneaky way. I don't feel bad about getting attention from people on here because it's my journal. Well, that's not right. I should be caring about the others on here and realizing that everyone is struggling and deserves support- not just me.
So I am going to take a step and move away from DS.
I still have my blog that I use as my 'real' journal and if you want to follow me on that- that's fine. Just shoot me an email at steffanie.mckay@gmail.com or find me on FB.
I am going to miss you all and all your supportive comments- but I think this might be a good step for me. I need to somehow start weaning myself away from all the possible sneaky things I do for attention. Yes- when I do these things I don't realize at the moment, but the more I think about it the more things I can find in my past that I have done just to get someone to notice me. It's sad and pathetic sounding I know.
I'm going to keep this up for this weekend, but come Sunday night...Goodbye DS and my account will be deleted.
I don't want pity comments about me leaving- I don't want to get attention from leaving- that is not what I want. I just want to make the announcement so that no one thinks I feel off the side of the earth or left because of what people were saying- It has nothing to do with either of those things.
Love to all, you know how to find me.
Xx
Tux-E
Replies
steph, i will be sad to see you leave but you are making a mature accessment of yourself and what you feel you need to do. if ds is encouraging you to get \"attention\" which by the way, is not your fault, its the hell your in, then you are making the right decision. i wish you the very best and hope peace and health finds you soon. many hugs and support, ann
You have to do what is best for you. I don\'t think journaling on DS is attention seeking and let\'s be honest you hardly get any comments. You are right it should be a two way street though. I comment on your journal with a lot of thought and you do the same for me. So as long as it goes like that I think there is nothing wrong. I don\'t think there is nothing wrong with wanting attention if you don\'t go overboard and you don\'t in your journals at least. So give it some thought, i will miss you. But it is your decision.
I just feel like everything I do is for attention now. Every little thing throughout everyday I second guess myself if it\'s for attention.
I\'m sorry that I\'m leaving...but this time it is for good. But we\'ll still keep in touch- don\'t you worry missy ;)
I honestly think you taking this attention thing a bit too far. Journaling about your inner most feeling is not seeking attention. And you know fb just isn\'t the same.
I think I totally understand where you\'re coming from on your decision. I\'ve sometimes felt the same way, and I HAVE taken a long break from here. You know what? Take a break, but maybe don\'t delete your account. It\'s always good to leave your options open, and who knows, one day you may want to return, and there\'s nothing wrong with that!
I agree, taking a break is good, but leave your account open incase you want to come back on.
Decision made...
I shall keep my profile open in case I change my mind in the future and feel as though I am stable enough to come back.
Thank you all.
Sounds like a good plan.