DianeMTB

Does any one else understand the pain of our loss?Does anyone care that even during the anniversary of our loss, we still grieve?Tomorrow will be two years to the date when Smokey died.  I don't...

I am gone for three days so won't be replying till I get back on Saturday, November 12, 2011.  Catch you later from Diane Baillie

Losing Smokey was like my heart stopping, I could not breathe anymore and my reason to was gone out of my life completely one hundred percent.  Smokey was my air to breathe.  Smokey was my reason...

It's been two years on Nov. 15, 2009 when Smokey died and I am crying already.Yesterday I could not figure out why I was crying so much.  The light bulb opened up my brain.  I am still grieving the...

I am feeling my age, weight etc.  Its a downer day today.  Who wants to be with a 55 years old woman anyways?  All the guys my age or older all want young hot women. Its so hard to meet someone....

It took a long time to accept the fact Smokey is gone and that I am a new single woman.  It comes with time.  

I am finding myself a better person for the horrible ordeal of losing my Smokey. 

It feels like I am coming out of a two years coma after Smokey died on Nov. 15, 2009. I think I went into a freeze or something.  I think slowly I am coming out of the deep freeze of feelings and...

I had a great day today.  I did not have anything planned.  My brother Don was coming over at 11 a.m. to take me out for lunch.  My cousin Esther calls me.  I said Don is taking me out for lunch....

Depression:  with the loss of my job and my husband within one year of each other.I think I am suffering from depression because of the above.  I have not seen a doctor about it but I think its...

This is my third time round.  I hope I get it right this time.1st time was getting married and divorced from my one and only husband Gary.2nd time round was Smokey (Al) dying and I...

After all the soul searching, really liking and respecting myself, I have decided that I will be breaking up with Dave.  I don't know when or how I am going to do it but enough is enough.  Dave...

God opened my eyes to show me that I have been angry and resentful for a very long time because Smokey died.  I was angry and resentful towards:1.  God2.  Smokey3.  Myself4.  Everyone and...

All this time I have been angry and resentful at God for taking my Smokey.  It's all that I have been feeling these days.  I am angry and resentful all the time at everyone and any thing except my...

My gripe about Dave's room mate Rob.  I always try to be quiet in the mornings especially on weekends where he likes to sleep in.  This one day Rob had worked late the night before and I was trying...