DianeMTB

I miss my Smokey 100 % and would like him back but it is not going to happen.  No other guy on God's green earth will compare to my Smokey.  No one.  Yesterday was Friday April 30 was my Smokey's...

Today would be my Smokey's birthday - 61 years old.  I thought I would be a lot sadder today but it was last night I really poured out a storm of tears.  Today my brother Don is trying to get me...

The paperwork after your loved one dies sucks.  It is not fair that the person you loved most in the world dies.  The insult to injury is all the paperwork, getting rid of stuff, clearing up...

I felt the utter hopelessness without my Smokey this afternoon and just poured out my heart felt tears.  I can't see life without my Smokey.  What's the point?  The apartment is like a ghost...

I felt the utter hopelessness without my Smokey this afternoon and just poured out my heart felt tears.  I can't see life without my Smokey.  What's the point?  The apartment is like a ghost...

It's been 30 years since I lived alone and now without my Smokey no wonder I am taking it so very hard.  In 1980, I lived with my ex-husband and then we got married for 16 1/2 years, left him &...

I am having a hard time as it is Smokey's birthday on Friday.  The first one without Smokey.  My heart is so heavy I had a hard time meditating and praying this morning.  There is much on my...

It is Smokey's birthday next Friday on April 30th.  It is making me sad.  Also, today I had to deposit the CPP Death Benefit, which also made me sad.  I guess there will be a lot of lasts for...

I am not interested in anything after losing my Smokey.  Entertainment isn't the same thing.  Shopping isn't the same thing.  Nothing is the same thing without my Smokey.  How can it be?  The...

Widows being treated differently because we are widows.  I am finding that the case with some people.  On the bright side they are not people I was very close to in the first place.  I guess when...

People treat you differently when you lose someone special in your life.  I am a widow now.  I am not a man eater.  I am finding some people are not so close since I lost Smokey.  I am not after...

If I could pick the above "Mark this entry as" it would be sad and venting.  I lost my husband Smokey.  My life will never ever be the same again. How can it be?  Smokey added to my life. ...

We hold on to their things because if we get rid of certain things that will mean that they are really gone, we don't want to acknowledge the fact that they are really and truly gone.  I had to...

After five months people think you should be fine or over it now.  How crazy are they anyways?  The people that say these things have never lost anyone in their entire lives.  Grief takes a long...

I am having a hard time the last two days.  My cousin came out from Langley and we had a good day.  Being in contact with other people seems to help out a bit.  The grief and crying hits you like...