DianeMTB

I am so very lonely without my Smokey.  How do you do it live alone?  Weekends were our time to do errands and kick up our heels.  It's not the same.   I don't want to make a mistake by getting...

It is not easy learning to be a widow.  I was so used to be a couple and it was very pleasurable for the both of us.  We had fun together and felt like kids all over again.  We loved each other...

My new baby grandson has changed my attitude for a positive one.  I was missing Smokey so much but now I have a baby grandson.  What a change I can have in my attitude and feelings when a brand new...

The circle of life is complete - my daughter Lisa had her son this morning at about 9:00 a.m.  I am going to let her rest and then go see my grandson for the very first time.  I am excited. ...

I find some of my brother Don's friends weird.  Don has a mental disorder and knows friends with mental disorders as well.  I would like your opinion about this one.  He has a friend named...

I don't know if I will ever heal or get over my Smokey's death.  It seems like it will be with me for the rest of my life.  It is not the same as not remembering Smokey.  I will always hold Smokey...

I can't seem to leave or want to leave the apartment today.  It is going to be seven months on June 15th.  It has been seven months since I lost the love of my life.  I wanted to go out as it is a...

How to find your own routine when you are used to having a routine with your husband?  Now you are one instead of two.  On Saturdays and Sundays, in the morning we would do our own errands and...

I got a shocker today. I got the ambulance bill from the day Smokey died and they took his body away on November 15, 2009.  Why does it take seven months before they send me the bill?  I don't...

I feel melancoly today.  I don't know why.  I worked hard this morning getting my resumes out.  I talked to Carol on the phone.  I had lunch.  I went out to Value Village and got my lottery...

This morning I cleaned Smokey's dusty car, which was his baby.  I never have driven in my life.  I used the swiffer to clean it and went over it with Windex.  Since I don't drive, I can't take it...

Our loved ones would never want us to feel guilty about anything.  Those who have passed on only want the best for us.  Your partner/spouse/mother/father/family memeber or friend will always be...

Thought I was on the upward slope of healing.  Big Surprise today that I am not.  I am in so much pain but it is not all about Smokey just my entire life without him.  It is so not fair how losing...

You know when  you are healing if you are looking out the window again instead of being shut in like a hermit emotionally speaking. You know when you are on the upswing to positive healing when...

It is easy to miss read signals from the opposite sex when you are a widower/widow.  Being and widow or widower makes you very vulnerable and lonely.  This can make you miss read the signals that...