DianeMTB

It's been six months since my Smokey died.  I feel like an evil woman flirting with a guy at Legends Bar.  It has been on-going for awhile now.  My brother Don and I went to Legends last night...

I am angry at having to deal with the car/bank etc.  Smokey owed about half of what he got the car for in 2005.  It was his baby and he treated the car real good.  Because he has two daughters, I...

I still have to deal with Smokey's car which was his baby.  It is in his name but I have storage insurance on it because I do not drive.  ICBC wants the Letters of Administration before I can get...

It has been six months since my Smokey died.  How could I have missed his anniversary date?  On the actually six months date, I had my brother Don over for dinner and he distracted me.  It was the...

Triggers:  it is funny what can make you cry.  I was watching Regis & Kelly.  They played the Sonny & Cher song "I Got You Babe" and it reminded me of Smokey.  I just started to bawl my head off...

The releasing of Smokey's ashes itself was okay.  It was the afterwards that was hard for me.  When I got home, it was like the unbearable pain of loss when Smokey first passed away.  It hit me...

I released Smokey's ashes today at the tip of Garry Point, Steveston, BC on a sunny and windy day.  I should have taken the wind factor into consideration when releasing Smokey's ashes but did...

What is the difference between someone being being friendly, someone interested in you and flirting?  I haven't been in the dating game for many years.  I just lost my husband on Sunday, November...

I say to those that have not lost anyone close to them to death "Walk a mile in my shoes."  It is not easy.  We just don't get over it.  After one month, we are just starting the grieving...

Daily Strength has been my life line in my loss of Smokey.  I don't know how I could have gone thru it without sharing with others who have faced the same situation.  I have my faith in God which...

My moods seem to be like a yoyo:  happy/sad, good/bad etc.  You get the idea.  This morning I felt good and thought maybe my six month grieving process is coming to an end.  Now I can feel the...

I am so sad at home and miss Smokey so much.  When I go out I seem like I am a different person.  Why?  I don't understand.  It is going on 6 months on the 15th of May.  At times, I am utterly...

I would not survive my husband's death without my DS friends.  You have supported me throughout my horrible ordeal and even now when I have really bad times.  I just wanted to say thank you to...

Sometimes the desire to keep on living anymore vanishes like now.  I was writing a journal entry, sent it, lied my head down on my desk and cried wishing I was not here anymore.  I wish I had a...

Why do some people bounce back more quickly than compared to other people when they lose someone special in their life?  I don't get it at all.  Some people after three months have a better...