20181120 Some things never change
Some things never change…
Although I have been doing better than usual for this time of year...today I am having a little bit of health anxiety. My boss called in sick today. Yesterday he kept saying he had the chills. It’s the most boring week here…super quiet before the holiday. He’s probably just bored and wanted a day off…but…
Now I’m having anxiety…what if he really was sick? Am I going to get it? I ate my breakfast and feel unusually full and uncomfortable…my stomach is gurgling...yep...there comes that anxiety feeling.
Fucking shit….
I guess I cannot complain since it’s almost the end of November and I haven’t had much more than uncomfortable feelings so far this year.
Once the anxiety passes then you have the sadness…knowing you are still an anxiety freak no matter what you do. Never able to just relax and enjoy life the way some people do…always getting in your own way.
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Have you had therapy, on medication? These have helped me.
More help is to learn to live mindfully. Concentrate on one day at a time.
Meditate. I also have a book that's helped me. Rewire Your Anxious Brain
by Catherine Pittman. Yes, I sure wish I could just enjoy each day and
Not be anxious. But I think of people in constant pain everyday and
would rather have anxiety than chronic pain.
Did you get a flu shot this year? It can relieve some anxiety and has the fringe benefit of preventing flu. LOL! Hope your weekend turns out ok. Buy the boss some flowers and a get well card. It could help your career. <3
thanks to you both...I have had a flu shot and many years of therapy..just writing to get it all out :)