ginachurchwell1970

Put Idk on title because this will just be a stream of conscious rant and I don't know where I'll go. I woke up this morning feeling bad. Not normal bad. More bad. Sense of foreboding, doom. My...

I have been trying to post a picture in this journal, with no success. I click browse and download at the bottom, find the photo, choose it and open it, and it appears on a page with small blue...

My trip was great...almost stress-free flights. I was so excited on my way that I chatted up everyone around me, SO not like me in the past few years. I think I was just so excited and happy that I...

I feel bad about my last journal...I feel it sounded whiny and selfish, however, I did speak to feelings others have had and they found it relatable. So in that way, it served a purpose. I guess most...

As usual, even over 3 1/2 years in, my emotions run the gamut...I can have a relatively peaceful day, even hopeful, and then bottom out the next day.I had a very bad day yesterday. It didn't start...

My husband and I went to the funeral home yesterday and went through the process of planning our final arrangements. There was more to it than I had expected, if you plan to do it, give yourself at...

I had something I really wanted to write about today, here, where I feel safe...to get some opinions and advice. Then I opened Facebook and saw a post from 4 years ago that was very, very tender. I...

I have a feeling this is going to be a long journal. I am going to try to keep it as short as possible, but there is so much I want to talk about...Forgiveness...I know that holding on to past wrongs...

Cassi would have been 26 today...Wow!!! 26... I wonder where she would be, if she had stayed. 26 years ago I was nearing the last stages of delivery...it is 9:30 now and she was born at 10:47am....

I haven't been on in a while, a long while. I have withdrawn as much as possible from life in general. I don't even cry anymore. It's like the pain has gone underground, out of sight, but there non...

Hi All...it's been over 2 weeks since my surgery and I am doing great, looking more "normal" day by day. It was something I wanted to do for a long time. I didn't have a lot of wrinkles but I did...

Hi everyone...it's been a few days. Today is a a day over a week since my facelift/necklift/browlift. I am doing great. Impatient, though...The procedure itself was not too bad. I am very, very,...

Three years...how did I get here??? One breath at a time I suppose.No big plans for tomorrow...just going to visit my baby and deliver an extravagant floral desplay which she wouldn't have cared...

I was at lunch last week with a friend, a grieving mom, who lost her son to suicide, same as I lost Cassi. She said something that I thought of so many times but never said in case it hurt the...