PaganSpirit
Status: "Scars are stories, history written on the body" Kathryn Harrison
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Had a pretty good meeting with my therapist. We talked about IOP (she also helps to run that), methods to keep me safe when Im having urges to cut, why its so hard for me to reach out to friends and...
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just got home from work…..tired….headache…..sad. I went out on a limb and started talking more about my depression with one of my co-workers, trying to explain what it does to me, how it...
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Nothing new to talk about accept for feeling more sadness today than usual. Other than that its all the same and it sucks. When will I get some relief? I don't know and Im starting to give up on it....
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I don't know if I can make it to the new year to start IOP. Things are just getting harder and harder to deal with. I feel like Im not holding it together very well anymore and to be honest Im...
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Ive been fighting the urges to cut a lot lately. Work has been horrible to deal with along with life in general. Ive been so irritated and been dealing with moments of rage and feelings of violence....
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I haven't written in a few days. I find it hard to organize my thoughts and write them down. Its like a whirlwind in my head and I can't seem to grasp any one thought long enough to look at it,...
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Had another "episode" yesterday. Thats the only way I can describe it. Im ok and then all of a sudden Im not and its no fucking fun. Starting to think I should just keep it to myself. Talking about...
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My mood has gone from OK to total shit in a matter of moments. I feel the rage and aggression coming on, I want to do some damage, I want to break things, to cut things and possibly myself. I feel...
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Fuck Shit Fuck!! Yes it is a complete sentence…….kinda….anyway….I am a bit wound up at the moment. I hate having appointments around 4pm. Today someone overbooked the appointments for my pdoc...
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I actually slept pretty good last night. A welcome change. I guess what I need to do is just end my work week with a 17hr shift and wear myself out physically and emotionally then my body and mind...
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Today wasn't too bad so far. Work was alright. Still not sleeping well and thats taking its toll but Im getting by. Cant stop thinking about this decision I need to make soon……its weighing on...
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I feel calm right now. Im sad but its ok right now. Its like I have found some acceptance of the depression Ive been fighting. Now that I read that it doesn't sound too good but honestly I feel...
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So far today hasn't been that bad. Work was alright. I even had a few laughs with my co-worker. Home now and playing ball with Edgar, just trying to relax and not worry and over think things. Still...
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Its only 535pm and I feel like Im crashing. Ive been up since 430am after only sleeping about 2hrs. Im tired and Im worn out. Part of me wants someone to talk to in order to take my mind off my...
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Therapy went well today. At one point I started to get nervous when she was listing the reasons why the hospital would be a good idea right now. She made a lot of good points and built a good case...
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