Today wasn't too bad so far. Work was alright. Still not sleeping well and thats taking its toll but Im getting by. Cant stop thinking about this decision I need to make soon……its weighing on me and making it hard to focus on anything else. Its also one of the reasons I can't sleep these days. What would be best for me? Go inpatient….close myself off from the whole world and just focus on me….be taken care of 24/7 by the hospital staff….kept safe from self harm and suicidal tendencies…..OR go outpatient treatment and get therapy 3 times a week….meds monitored….and freedom to go home each day. Each has its pros and cons and I feel this is like the thousandth time Ive talked about this but its important to me. Also weighing heavy on my mind is wether or not I go for the ECT treatments. Gotta go for the consultation first but I can't stop thinking about it. As I said, I know Im repeating myself but these are the things that are important to me these days.
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I\'m with you Pagan on the IP vs OP decision. It\'s been taking over my mind too. Can you really go wrong either way? Not really. Ofc there are pros and cons to each, but either way you will have help. Keep on keepin\' on, friend. You\'re doing so well. ((hugs))
I hear you Pagan. You sound really self aware and rational. You sound like in a pinch between the negative and positive you can remain positive. I think - and that only pertains to me - that outpatient sounds like a conservative and good approach to health. I know what it is to go inpatient - it can be traumatic. I also know that a housemate of mine has done ECT and that also was traumatic for her - and for us who saw her go through that. I am sending best wishes and support that you will find what you\'re looking for.. I am here for you! Peace, Mark
You\'re weighing major decisions. That\'s difficult enough. Would outpatient be enough to stay safe? I wonder about getting enough support inpatient. But I want you to stay safe. Hugs x
I think hard decisions take a lot of thought Pagan so it\'s fully understandable they are weighing on your mind 24/7..... I hope whichever you choose helps you with feeling better x