So far today hasn't been that bad. Work was alright. I even had a few laughs with my co-worker. Home now and playing ball with Edgar, just trying to relax and not worry and over think things. Still not sleeping well. I am 99% sure I will go back into IOP as opposed to going inpatient. There are pros and cons to both but the bottom line is they will both help and for various reasons IOP would be best at this time. Not happy about doing it for the third time but 3hrs of group therapy 3 times a week for a while will do me some good. My therapist says we need to figure out how to slow down or stop this downward spiral before its too late. Both options will do that. I actually feel like tonight will be a good night. Maybe I'll have Edgar tell me a story. Im sure he's got some good cat tales he can share with his human. I wonder what goes through his fury little head. Anyway……maybe I'll get some decent sleep tonight. I had some more I wanted to write but I think I'll save it for another time. Enough rambling on for now.