PaganSpirit
Status: "Scars are stories, history written on the body" Kathryn Harrison
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Left work about 2 hrs. early today. I had to do it, I could not handle being there. My co-worker was understanding of it but he is part of the reason I couldn't handle it anymore. He pissed me off...
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So, I get to work this morning and my co-worker informs me that I am going to get forced to work a double shift again. Its a long story how he knows and I didn't know ahead of time so I won't get...
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I survived my double shift at work. It wasn't easy. I have such a low opinion of myself these days. I continue to make mistakes and forget how to do stuff at work I feel incompetent, I'm starting to...
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I don't know what to do. I am scheduled to work the weekend and I don't want to work any of it. Since wednesday ( my monday) I've wanted to call out sick for work but I haven't and each day is...
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I have an appointment with my pdoc today. I haven't seen him in a while and I have a lot to talk about. I hope I remember everything. I did write a list to take with me so that will help. I need...
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Not sure were to begin. Ive been very emotional lately and don't know what to make of it. Work has been hard to deal with due to feelings of sadness. I can't help but feel that way. Some times I feel...
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Its been a while since I wrote a journal entry. Not sure why because writing helps me deal with things. Oh well, such as life. This is just a little update. I feel that I'm doing better than I have...
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Loneliness is a familiar feeling to me. I feel it often. I can feel it even when I'm with someone or around other humans. Its a feeling of not fitting in or having much in common with the people...
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Had my first ECT treatment this past Wed. and I think it went well. I was very nervous but the people there were nice and made me feel somewhat at ease. I know after I go a few times I will feel more...
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Didn't sleep well again last night. Takes me forever to fall asleep and/or its restless sleep when I do finally fall asleep. I take a sleep aid and one of my night time meds makes me sleepy but...
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I feel like such an idiot! I'm at my morning group therapy session and one woman has been going for ECT for a while and when I told her I started today she said, "so, no food or drink for you...
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So, I was telling my therapist today about my day yesterday. Yesterday was a good day for me. It wasn't outstanding or great or anything like that but compared to the way Ive been feeling lately it...
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Last night I had a dream that I was holding a gun to my head and the police were there trying to talk me out of it. I think the cops represented the side of me that wants to live and I represented...
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Im so tired…..Ive been experiencing such intense anxiety lately that Ive been losing sleep, worrying, having a hard time focusing on things……..Im a mess. My body is sore and tired from a ton...
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So, when I got up today I looked outside and all I saw was a layer of white covering everything. Must have been snowing for a few hours before I noticed. I decide to go to the store before it gets...
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