therapy
Therapy went well today. At one point I started to get nervous when she was listing the reasons why the hospital would be a good idea right now. She made a lot of good points and built a good case for it……hell, I even admitted that the hospital would be good for me now. Probably a bit too honest. Anyway, she didn't make any phone calls for the men in the white jackets but I did say that come the first of the year if Im still feeling this bad I will gladly go into the hospital but I can't right now. I just have to hold it together until then or until I find a med that can help or…….I leave this place. I scare myself when I talk like that and its not meant to make anyone worry, its just the way it is unfortunately. She did say that she doesn't see how I am planning to make it that long…..she says she doesn't hear it in my voice that I can make it. and she wanted to know what I planned on doing to help myself (healthy options only). I told her that Ive been journaling more these days and she was happy to hear that. She is glad that I have this support here on DS to help also. She reminded me that theres a lot of people out there suffering too with similar things and she's right. Knowing that and hearing from those people( you guys) helps me feel less alone. She also gave me homework. Can you believe it…..homework. Well I need it. We went over some mindfulness techniques that she wants me to practice everyday. I promised her I would. I like this woman, I feel she is trying very hard to keep me safe and healthy and helping find the right tools that can help. So…..therapy went well today. Did I say that already?
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I\'m glad therapy went well... and I like the idea of the homework..... something helpful to focus on... and I\'m glad you have said you will re-think things at the beginning of the new year.. hopefully you won\'t need to....but if you find you need to go to the hospital before then... then there is no shame in that..... just don\'t like to hear you talk of leaving this place at all
I\'m really chuffed with this woman too Pagan... I\'m glad you have her on your side too... as well as us here... I hope we can all give you the support you need to get through this x
You do give me the support I need Ruby as well as all my other friends here on DS and even those not my friends show their support. Im in a good place when Im here, thanks for that.
Big hug for you sweetie... I know that a hospital stay turned my life around within 3 weeks... I went in crushed and came out with hope and feeling relatively stable.. It was a transformation and I\'m not exaggerating ... I know it\'s not what you want Pagan however just know that you have options ... Very good options that just might turn your life around.... Big hug...xo
You made me laugh a little with your homework comment :) Your therapist sounds very good, and like she cares so much. I am so happy that she is willing to work so hard with and for you, and I love the honesty that you have with one another. We know withholding info won\'t get us anywhere, but actually finding someone you can be honest with is a big deal. I\'m so glad therapy was helpful today.
Stay with us. You\'d be terribly missed if you weren\'t here anymore. I\'m serious.
Sadie, thank you. I agree that withholding info can only hurt me instead of help. She is the first person that I have been able to open up to completely and its both scary and reassuring. Jan, I know a hospital stay would help but I have to make it through to the new year before I go in. I\'ll explain some other time but I know what you mean about it being a transformative experience.
I\'m glad to hear that your therapy went good today, Pagan. Your comment about homework made me chuckle as well. I\'ve gotten lots of homework from therapy, some helpful, some not. I hope it helps you.
joneszy..when I do the homework it is helpful but my therapist knows that Im a slacker when it comes to homework so this is really important that I buckle down and do this. Thanks for the comment.
I tend to be a slacker at times too. You\'re welcome for the comment, Pagan. Good luck with your homework!