malibumark

  I am sitting here in my room and I am thoughtful of some things that might  be good for me to share.  I spent a lot of time yesterday being thoughtful about a life plan and I was pretty...

i am finding right now 'it's not easy being green.' i feel the weakness and the strain that goes with having mental illness. I went to do my volunteer thing at the hospital yesterday but I left soon...

lost a few more pounds. 175 should be a good goal. 6ft tall and 175. That's cool for me.

lately I have felt like there's a struggle between the way I can feel when I am optimistic and full of promise and then the way things as they really are. I don't strive for things, I get distracted-...

These past two days have been about me trying to think in terms of what I could potentially do for work.I work part time now, but I have been thinking about going into something full-time or I have...

I had a couple of therapists (a Pyschiatrist and a therapist) who worked in concert to try and teach me the realities of life. It was a really grim process and relationship. I understand it,I really...

I am starting to see that in accepting my now and then negative qualities it helps meaccept the day, accept myself, accept the struggles and function better. Allowing myselfto have these qualities is...

Earlier today i looked outside myself for love and support. Ultimately from the person I looked to,I didn't feel appreciated. It is the new year so I may be extra sensitive.I know though that I can...

I am teetering a little bit from a feeling of self responsibility and an 'oh woe is me' state.It's just what I think we all go through at some level. Wherea stronger sense of self turns into a...

I am becoming more aware of my limits lately. More aware that I may not havemuch more to aspire to in my life however as I said this to my Father - he encouraged"You've got to find your happiness."...

I feel the draw to make sense out of something that no longer makes sense to me.I was a part of a church congregation that involved me in their life. I then the other weekendwas sent an email by one...

I think I am getting to know the mischief my mind 'gets up to' and how I respond to it.I often have felt undermined by my own mind, it's curiousness and it's machinations.I know now that I am...

I am realizing for me, though I have come to a kind of understanding of the issues at play with my illness, it still takes a little extra effort for me to keep the anxiety 'at bay.' I may understand,...

I am thinking about joining the gym nearby my house but the cost of it may not make it possible.I think I've got to try it - and then I will have to forego some other expenses so I can do it.I am...

I try and grown from my experiences and be adaptive enough to roll with what life puts in front of me.It's a major drag when you make some discoveries that seem to advance yourself to where you want...