malibumark

I have realized now that my mood by propensity dips low, I don't know if it's from habit or nature - but I am keeping aware of this moods shift and mitigating its impact. I am using this awareness to...

I left the house today with a kind of hurried nihilism. I felt detached and just so isolated and random.  I don't know if many feel this way. Living in a group home whereas once I was a homeowner of...

I am reminded of that line from the opening song to "Cheers."  It rings true to me while I have been thinking about certain things in my life that are coming to the forefront of my thoughts.I had...

I have to say that I am starting to feel better about each day. The rolling with the punches thang, is working (I am getting 'good' at it.)  I go to work and work hard, and I really believe this, in...

I am sorry to come here only on bad days. Well, that's not entirely true. I do come herewhen I am not upset. Today is just a bad day - finding it hard to keep the mind occupied and "out of...

June 21, 2012I am learning to take things dayby day. In doing so, I am facing myself and my sense of pride. I used to want an answer that would make me as I was before, full of vim and...

I used to be a whiz organizer when I worked at a major corporation.But I think I somehow forgot to carry that over into my management of my illness.Well... yesterday I kind of hit a hurdle and I...

I hit a bump in the road last night, my mood spiked - the mystery of life why I couldn't be prepared or control it. I don't know if we are meant to control our moods and emotions but maybe to just...

I keep on thinking that I will get to a place where I can easily manage my emotions, not a perfection but where I can be more at ease with it and then be more focused in my productivity. I guess I...

I had a good day, I went out into Santa Monica as is my usual thing. I went to my fav English pub - had lunch and talked to some people. I walked around a bit and saw a movie. It was a really good...

I am sorry to be writing again.  The depression that started yesterday is back. I went to work this morning and started to get depressed there, so much so that I nearly vomited.I guess I am feeling...

I was sitting here at my father's house melding into the party going on around me, generally feeling old for the newly noticed bald patch on the back of my head. Since my last "break" I have had a...

I took the bus into Santa Monica today from Malibu.  It's been raining pretty steadily but I still wanted to come.  I am glad I did.  I went to the movies to see "Hugo" but left shortly after it...