accepting limitation, when you forget that you have them

I try and grown from my experiences and be adaptive enough to roll with what life puts in front of me.
It's a major drag when you make some discoveries that seem to advance yourself to where you want to go only to begin a peak of a mood which sends you crashing downward.
I don't know if that makes sense, but I know I have limits, and though I live in a place for people
like me, I don't like where I live. I would like to get a fulltime job and move. I don't know if that is in the cards for me. I am just not strong enough anymore. 
I try to find a center, I accept religion into my life. I hope that accepting god will give me strength for the journey and yet I still come crashing to earth.
I feel like I want to make a move to improve my life and I feel the family and social pressure is echoing that impulse. I don't know if it's possible anymore.
I want to be free again, I want to have money and travel and have some personal space. I can say to myself though in facing all the things I don't have, I do have it better than a lot. Gratitude is important.
I've got some good things. I am frustrated though.