so cheesed off! :)

I had a couple of therapists (a Pyschiatrist and a therapist) who worked in concert to try 
and teach me the realities of life. It was a really grim process and relationship. I understand it,
I really do. I get what they tried to teach me but I'll say this as I start to think about them 
this last night and morning that I may understand what they were getting at but I don't think
those truths were so able to be applied by me. I may even have a sense of it within myself- at moments of personal strength.   It might give me more respect for the hierarchy of life
but what they taught me can't be put into action by me. It's my limits. It leaves me with a sense of a vacuum emotionally in my life and an inability to connect with my previous take on life.
Sorry to complain. We all here have our crosses to bear. I just feel like I have those scrambled egg brains. I need to take a deep breath and just keep at it.