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I sit here and my depression raises, it is after all my day off. I have to remind myself that inactivity is a crucial factor in the development of sadness. I have some good things coming up, I have...

I have noticed how resilient people are in their lives.  The mental illness which strikes us is counter-acted by some serious energy into reclaiming that loss of power that was lost. Whether it be...

ok, you all are the first to know....I am watching Star Trek! lolI'm a nerd! :) do you have a 'guilty pleasure'?

I went to work today - had a good day.  I came home and just after several hours of thinking about things, I have come to a place of gratitude. I have a nice job, I have a wonderful house that I...

I have realized now that my mood by propensity dips low, I don't know if it's from habit or nature - but I am keeping aware of this moods shift and mitigating its impact. I am using this awareness to...

I left the house today with a kind of hurried nihilism. I felt detached and just so isolated and random.  I don't know if many feel this way. Living in a group home whereas once I was a homeowner of...

I am reminded of that line from the opening song to "Cheers."  It rings true to me while I have been thinking about certain things in my life that are coming to the forefront of my thoughts.I had...

I have to say that I am starting to feel better about each day. The rolling with the punches thang, is working (I am getting 'good' at it.)  I go to work and work hard, and I really believe this, in...

I am sorry to come here only on bad days. Well, that's not entirely true. I do come herewhen I am not upset. Today is just a bad day - finding it hard to keep the mind occupied and "out of...

June 21, 2012I am learning to take things dayby day. In doing so, I am facing myself and my sense of pride. I used to want an answer that would make me as I was before, full of vim and...

I used to be a whiz organizer when I worked at a major corporation.But I think I somehow forgot to carry that over into my management of my illness.Well... yesterday I kind of hit a hurdle and I...

I hit a bump in the road last night, my mood spiked - the mystery of life why I couldn't be prepared or control it. I don't know if we are meant to control our moods and emotions but maybe to just...

I keep on thinking that I will get to a place where I can easily manage my emotions, not a perfection but where I can be more at ease with it and then be more focused in my productivity. I guess I...

I had a good day, I went out into Santa Monica as is my usual thing. I went to my fav English pub - had lunch and talked to some people. I walked around a bit and saw a movie. It was a really good...

I am sorry to be writing again.  The depression that started yesterday is back. I went to work this morning and started to get depressed there, so much so that I nearly vomited.I guess I am feeling...