the stage I am at

I think I am getting to know the mischief my mind 'gets up to' and how I respond to it.
I often have felt undermined by my own mind, it's curiousness and it's machinations.
I know now that I am managing myself just like any other so that I can get on with what I need to do, to survive and also be successful in what I hope to achieve.
Call it self responsible or adding a rationality to any disappointment. It always surprises me that
when I get onto a smooth track in life, like I have got some things figured out or there's just an orderliness to my day - quite often there is something in me that usurps that peace to ask a random question. To pursue a thought or idea and that reality creates a disunity,an upset, a stepping away in small part 
from what I am focusing on. I gently refocus myself. Get back on track and just keep moving forward.
A friend of mine has ulcsers, this is basically what i have got and it's just the reality I deal with.
I think I am and feel lucky that I have learned to deal with my issues. I can still pursue my relationships.