just an update

 
 
I am sitting here in my room and I am thoughtful of some things that might  be good for me to share. 
 
I spent a lot of time yesterday being thoughtful about a life plan and I was pretty enthusiastic about it. I ended the day feeling blown out after all of that thinking.
Then I went to work today and similarly was coping with some dipping mood and
needed to guard myself from some aggression I was feeling too.
 
As I am Bipolar and Sz, I have to remind myself of the fact that I will have these moods swings and crestfallen feelings when I get this way. When there are transitions and when I get excited about things there will most always be a flip side.
 
These efforts and moods should not determine my long term outlook or effort at fulfilling goals, rather they are just something I need to make allowances for. I may feel a downside and a lacking in pride because I have weaknesses that seriously 'stir the pot' - but I need to just 'Keep Calm and Carry On" literally as best I can. 
 
It helps that I am reminding myself this is a life long thing - and the feelings though they can blow away my perspective at times - perhaps just remembering that they are passing I can regain my sea footing. I don't know what the future holds, right now i am just trying to latch on to the affirmative.