malibumark

I went to work today - and trained a new guy - it went well - but I have been noticing lately that my boss at the bakery and me - we just don't mix- like oil and water.. so there's politics - she...

i know I don't have a great sense of self but I do know whatmakes me feel good is if I do something that helps me - like if I accomplish somethingduring the day. 

I have been busy today starting to organize my room and made some 'life admin" calls for insurance etc..Finding your structure in life is important - but it isn't all that I want. I'd love the...

 I went to my sister Anne's house today and spent some time with the whole family. It was really nice. I felt on edge at first- and then slowly that turned to fatigue - and then I just let go. I...

If I didn't have work, I think I would set to work on myself. Does that make sense? I would find someway to work on myself mentally if I didn't point my sights outwardly on something.And so I am...

i don't know why i feel so often 'at a loss' without direction, questioning why i am the way I am or drilling down. I want to reach out to others to reassure me.I don't have a role, or rhyme or...

I have recognized lately, through hard work and some distress, that I have been letting the abuse in lifekeep me company and define me. I don't know how it is for anyone else, but I seem, when alone...

I was watching France24 over the holidays and they had a round table discussionabout the wave of populism and the kind of 'downfall' of the Western Liberal state. It was the determination or the...

I think I have been living in a dream. A dream of following or gliding along in my spirit and not feeling the outerlayer of structure in my life. I feel like I have been living in a bubble, of how I...

Today has been a struggle but also an opportunity to seek new ground.I kind of felt real low like my life isn't really special to anyone and yetas I went for a walk (to just clear my head) I thought...

As I wrote in my last journal, I expressed some pretty high flying positivity.I came home from my family's house yesterday and it was all down hill from there.I did errands this morning and felt so...

I woke up this morning and the promise of a new day felt giddy in my stomach and spirit.I washed up and took myself out for a coffee. Was wished a Happy New Year by the barristaand also by a man...

I feel kind of lost. I feel like I spend so much of my energy trying to hold myself together. With a sense of value for myself and others.Then little things happen like a lady in the parking lot...

I think that I think because I have this 'struggle'/condition that I have been shuttering in.I'd like to take myself out there and do some greater good. I won't buy into a victim oran idleness but...

I have kept somewhat busy today- I did the chores that I needed to do - Then became thoughtfulabout what I am doing - and then became so dissatisfied with what I am doing. I don't feel greatand I...