malibumark

I feel like I've got this pattern to my moods. Well I am bipolar and I go up and I go down.But I feel like i am supposed to fetter out some truth to things. I think what I said is my truth. I go up...

lately it seems God is showing me who I really am. I can think or feel that I am more than I really am at times and then, I get a glimpse of the reality and I fall back down to earth.I heard, on the...

I have been socializing a lot more lately. I am starting to make new relationships and starting to commit to those relationships. This is guiding my sites towards seeing now what I'm really wanting...

We have a new housemate here at the house and she is mighty limited and mighty sick.I have no idea what she would do without her family yet she is so abusive to them.The new element in the house has...

I am feeling and doing better today. I am really thankful. I went to work, which got me 'out there' and then came home.Not much to report here just really thankful for the good times/momentsand...

 I am going through such a crazy low right nowI find myself second guessing every expressionI am trying to make when writing emails or sendinginvitations, I find myself blockaded from...

I am sorry to write like this. I just didn't know what to do.I feel like shit the past couple of days and I don't know who to talk with about it. It feels like I am getting a little illagain - but...

My mood has me feeling like a twit right now - but I know that's not accurate.In some ways I can't wait to get back to work tomorrow, I like the purpose it gives me.I like being around people and I...

I went to my parents' house last night and I found my mood and anxiety levels were really upand it bothered me. It's like I was presented with 'who I am' and I didn't like it. I don't know if that...

i don't even know how to explain it. i pick apart my experienceand try and figure it out. i don't even know if it is productive anymore.i am so strung out on trying to understand things, when i think...

Nothing is wrong, I just decided to mix it up this afternoon. I went and visited a local church that I have always wanted to see and then I stopped at the market. I bought a baguette, cornichons,...

I am realizing that my main job is keeping healthy (and happy.) I realize I can do this.I know the pattern I have that idyl time is not a good recipe for me. I need to keep active. Excercise a lot...

sometimes I a am very aware of my neediness and I am not sure what I can do about it. I am sitting here and want things to change in my life, to feel like I am not wasting away my days. I keep busy...

Lately, I mean the last few days I have been feeling my limits. At least I think it is my limits. I just have been feeling a loss as to my personal strengths and power to feel somewhat powerful about...

Someone said to me that psychosis seems a very lonely road. I couldn't agree more. Despite having come to a place in my life where I feel like I can deal with the symptoms of the illness and let...